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Jun 23, 2006 01:33

Strange enough, it seems that when my mind knows that I won't see Adri anytime soon, it suddenly slips back into this juvenile mindset i had in high school. Life appears dreary, petty conflicts take on the appearence of life and death scenarios, and i just hate myself. But i had a sort of epiphany, an eye opener if you will. I realized what's bothering me. The pettiness, only the idiotic problematic conflicts i create for myself believing they are a necessity. But they aren't, they're annoying, that's all. So to summarize my scientific discovery, i would jus tlike to say that any grudge i had with anyone, and i mean anyone, including the scary french canadian stalker chick, i wnat it over, i want it gone. I waste my energy on the avoidance, the disregard (synonyms rule), but it's all idiocity. So basically, for any casual readers of my journal that beleive i have a grudge agains tyou, i don't, or at least, not anymore. I need this cleansing, i'm will to chill with anyone. Cause hey, if one really hates me, they need not ot worry, i'm not here for long. Another month and a half, and i'm gone, gone to another city. Then hopefully, to either England for med school, or staying in new york city for law school. That, truly, is where my adventure lies. So i apologize to all the indignant, offended individuals out there who believe i have wronged them without reason. All i can say is, deepest apologies, i'm ready to move on....are you?
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