Argh or maybe Ugh
I thought maybe it would be cool if I updated my journal everyday or at least everyday that I could just to give it some consistency. Well let me see what I have to say. As I have gotten no comments on what I wrote yesterday I guess I will talk about other various things on my mind. I am confused. Yes confused and lost. Lost and dizzy. Dizzy and down. I don't know what to do exactly. I feel bad. Maybe I have done something that has effected me so. Or maybe it isn't that maybe something has happened to me. What can I say what can I do? Maybe I just need to stop. Maybe not think and not do not fly and not try. It could be better if I just sat and thought not what to do. Maybe going on without a care is the thing to do. Who am I kidding though? That won't work it never does. If it would something far more serious would be wrong with me. If not that then what? Why bother caring and wondering? Why not just ignore it all and go on on on? Look though there I go I ramble on and on.
Maybe that is it I never know when. Just let it all go and don't have a single care. That isn't me though I know that. So I don't know what to do. I do know that no matter what there is no real way out. Could there be? Should there be? I just don't know. Do I look for escape is that where I am misguided in my doing? I wish I could say but I don't know. I am wrapped, tangled and I don't know the way out. I wish I did but it is so unclear to me. Maybe support and love and care. A friend or two. Maybe isolation all around. Maybe staying all alone. Maybe going all out. You see it could be in my head. It could be the way I live and what I do but I don't know and I don't know how to know. Do you? Answer not. Leave me be. Seek away and be happy. Trouble not and never return go away and stay afar. You need not think of me and I lack life and a star.
Heh, yeah well bye bye