Everything's lost
Today has singly been the worst day I have had for months now. All kinds of stuff happened and it is all culminating within me. A swirling mass of loss pain and despair. Confusion in large amounts and who knows what else. LEt me just go off of the top of my head. I just realized that I have no more money. I am essentially broke. That isn't the thing that shocked me though. I realized that in 1 month alone I managed to spend 300 dollars. I can't believe it. In truth I am utterly shocked. I spend money like there is no next month. Ok so that was a joke. That was enough to make my day feel kinda bleak but there is far more to come. Oh yes there is far more. Next of all I have lost hundreds of hours of my life. Yes thats right not just a few but literally hundreds. What am I talking about? My memory card and my sister's memory card fopr our gamecube are no more. I can't imagine having to work all the way back to where I was in such games as Metroid Prime, Metal Gear Solid, Phantasy Star Online Episodes I&II, Phantasy Star Online Episode III, Animal Crossing, Galdius, Custom Robo, Wind Waker and who knows what else. So long wasted. Its not that I spent the time to begin with but that it is all gone after spending that time. It doesn't end there. If that was all that had happened it would have been a day for realization but no it isn't such a kind thing. What else happened? Well I was smacked in the face by my home issues. My mom is so drunk that ...... argh! There is no way to deal with it anymore. My dad is never home. My mom doesn't do anything and thinks she does everything. My dad just isn't here. I'm raising my siblings as a poor kid with no help and no ability. It's obvious that I'm not good enough to do this. I'm at a loss torn between what to do next and left without a way out or even through. I feel there is nothing anyone even I can do.