the smell of cheap perfume + ruff sex = skittles are good
why do certain things people say stick out of your conversations like a sword in rose bush sometimes?
my english teacher was semi-impressed with my half ass essay. he gave me a 90. i think he's sad and lonely. i want a 100. so he said i could fix my mistakes and get a higher grade by wednesday.
my mom spent 25 bux on baby clothes. she got some cute dresses to clothe the poor thing in. i guess i cant blame her. i know ive been so selfish and mean about this baby. its mi madre's first grandchild. and here i am acting like a bitch every time she mentions my neice (sp?). i dont wanna feel like this forever. i want us to be a happy family again too, just like my mom. but i dont know how to make myself feel ok with it. i dont know how to keep my self from crying next time i see trey. i dont know how to be brave enough to stand in the same room with him. i know its been almost two years since i saw him. but i still dont feel right. i want to forgive him and i want to be comfortable around him. and i want to trust him again. and i want to forget about it. but how can i? im still afraid. im still angry. im still paranoid. im so confused. what am i suppose to do? i want to meet my neice. but that means i have to see trey face to face again. he'll try to hug me. i just know he will. what do i do???