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fair..
index cards and my mothers watch leave me wondering..
why does jessica have pit stains?
all my psychological brilliance points to one answer..
but you're not good enough to tell.
so Cambria is dehydrated and depressed now,
course i would be too if my kittens were still born.
i bet trey's baby will be still born.
im a crual individual.
so being mad at the world is a tuff job,
i dont know how long i thought i could keep it up..
i bit off a couple of heads last night, and
promised amber there's no bugs under her bead.. i was lying.
my mom has reached the critical point in menopause
where hot flashes and insanity work together to piss me off
i think i have a cold.. and some of my hair just fell out.. which is weird cuz
that usually just happens in the shower.
today i cried twice.
once cuz i thought i had a serious health problem that required meds and then again cuz of trey.
what the hell is wrong with people??
what the hell is wrong with me???
i need to stop not breathing.
i need to be happy and optimistic.
im usually quite good at that, plus if i dont do that,
scott might think im always negative and that might drive him away.. i dont want that.
i miss scott.
i saw him yesterday but he was late and i was mad and i really want him to be happy.
im such a dork.. talking about a guy that i know is going to read what im writing and
he'll reply and i'll feel akward cuz he will know that i think about him this much and maybe this is pathetic??
that last stanza was longer than the previous ones..
does that symbolize anything to you?
so i made my crazy mom some dinner and
slept for a day.. with a break about 30 mins long to deal with andrew's packet thingy.
now she wants online.. and my presence gone.. out
of her room. and she's asking me to look in her car for something..
but its okay, cuz i need that something.
funny how its easier to do something when it's for myself.
im such a crual individual.
but God loves me so i should leave now.. and pray maybe.
i know nothing ive said tonight makes any sense whatsoever.
but maybe that's the way it's spose to be.. logical to only me.
cheerio.
(ill pray for yall too.)
index cards and my mothers watch leave me wondering..
why does jessica have pit stains?
all my psychological brilliance points to one answer..
but you're not good enough to tell.
so Cambria is dehydrated and depressed now,
course i would be too if my kittens were still born.
i bet trey's baby will be still born.
im a crual individual.
so being mad at the world is a tuff job,
i dont know how long i thought i could keep it up..
i bit off a couple of heads last night, and
promised amber there's no bugs under her bead.. i was lying.
my mom has reached the critical point in menopause
where hot flashes and insanity work together to piss me off
i think i have a cold.. and some of my hair just fell out.. which is weird cuz
that usually just happens in the shower.
today i cried twice.
once cuz i thought i had a serious health problem that required meds and then again cuz of trey.
what the hell is wrong with people??
what the hell is wrong with me???
i need to stop not breathing.
i need to be happy and optimistic.
im usually quite good at that, plus if i dont do that,
scott might think im always negative and that might drive him away.. i dont want that.
i miss scott.
i saw him yesterday but he was late and i was mad and i really want him to be happy.
im such a dork.. talking about a guy that i know is going to read what im writing and
he'll reply and i'll feel akward cuz he will know that i think about him this much and maybe this is pathetic??
that last stanza was longer than the previous ones..
does that symbolize anything to you?
so i made my crazy mom some dinner and
slept for a day.. with a break about 30 mins long to deal with andrew's packet thingy.
now she wants online.. and my presence gone.. out
of her room. and she's asking me to look in her car for something..
but its okay, cuz i need that something.
funny how its easier to do something when it's for myself.
im such a crual individual.
but God loves me so i should leave now.. and pray maybe.
i know nothing ive said tonight makes any sense whatsoever.
but maybe that's the way it's spose to be.. logical to only me.
cheerio.
(ill pray for yall too.)