as confusing as things can get
wow, i haven't posted an entry in here forever, and most of the entries really aren't that detailed on giving an update of where i stand and how i'm doing in life right now. so i guess i can start here...
i've been living in boise since the end of august, and i love it here. the change in scenery has done wonders for who i am as a person. i'm happy here. i'm not saying that there haven't been rough patches, but for the most part, this move was the greatest thing i could've done for myself. now, don't get me wrong, i miss dillon...i miss montana...my family and friends. and it's been a little rough adjusting without them to tell the truth, but i'm doing it and doing it quite well actually. i think that hardest part of was leaving my friends behind...and my grandma. i think since my parents started the whole divorce process, it's made me a glad that i'm not there to have to deal with it. it was bad enough to be there for three months of it. so i guess it's been great for my sanity as well. because with that whole process i felt like i was being smothered and that i was going to crack under the pressure any minute. things have since cooled down since august, and it's getting better, but with holidays approaching i still have my doubts about spending a whole month home trying to juggle my mom, dad, and my grandma...whoooo...i think i'm definately in for a ride.
i've met some incredible people here, some that i never thought i would come to actually get to know. i don't spend as much time with dustin grant as i would like, but he's busy and dealing with his own confusing shit right now in his life, so i guess i can't blame him for never having time. it still hurts since we've been like best friends since 6th grade, but he's in a mode now where he believes being selfish will solve everything...and i don't mean selfish in a bad way, but just selfish enough to want to figure out his own shit before he starts to take on all of his friends shit. garrett moved back home, and i couldn't have been more depressed about that. he became my best friend here. i loved the time that i spent with him. he's a great guy and friend. as my official drinking buddy, i miss him very much so. haha :) mark and nate...these boys are great. met them through garrett, and can't believe how much i really like hanging with them. then there's danny. i seriously love this kid. met him in 05 through dustin, and we just kinda started hanging, and i never expected anything to blossom out of it. but it did. not officially dating or anything because he moved to salt lake city to take a job for skywest airlines. still very much confused about what we are going to do, let alone what i'm going to do about it. because it isn't just him that i'm interested in. met dustin johnson through brit up here because he had gone to western and known her for quite awhile. and somewhere along that line, we started hanging out a little more...and boom...now i'm stuck between having to essentially choose between them. i can't juggle two boys because let's face it i can barely handle one. i'm such a mess when it comes to boys. danny is loveable and laidback and essentially my type of guy, but dustin is sweet and cuddly and everything i never expected to like. so i'm stuck and confused with that. guess it will all work out in the end.
so this move is proving to evolve into the world of kelsey more and more each day. i think it's going to be one hell of a ride :)
i've been living in boise since the end of august, and i love it here. the change in scenery has done wonders for who i am as a person. i'm happy here. i'm not saying that there haven't been rough patches, but for the most part, this move was the greatest thing i could've done for myself. now, don't get me wrong, i miss dillon...i miss montana...my family and friends. and it's been a little rough adjusting without them to tell the truth, but i'm doing it and doing it quite well actually. i think that hardest part of was leaving my friends behind...and my grandma. i think since my parents started the whole divorce process, it's made me a glad that i'm not there to have to deal with it. it was bad enough to be there for three months of it. so i guess it's been great for my sanity as well. because with that whole process i felt like i was being smothered and that i was going to crack under the pressure any minute. things have since cooled down since august, and it's getting better, but with holidays approaching i still have my doubts about spending a whole month home trying to juggle my mom, dad, and my grandma...whoooo...i think i'm definately in for a ride.
i've met some incredible people here, some that i never thought i would come to actually get to know. i don't spend as much time with dustin grant as i would like, but he's busy and dealing with his own confusing shit right now in his life, so i guess i can't blame him for never having time. it still hurts since we've been like best friends since 6th grade, but he's in a mode now where he believes being selfish will solve everything...and i don't mean selfish in a bad way, but just selfish enough to want to figure out his own shit before he starts to take on all of his friends shit. garrett moved back home, and i couldn't have been more depressed about that. he became my best friend here. i loved the time that i spent with him. he's a great guy and friend. as my official drinking buddy, i miss him very much so. haha :) mark and nate...these boys are great. met them through garrett, and can't believe how much i really like hanging with them. then there's danny. i seriously love this kid. met him in 05 through dustin, and we just kinda started hanging, and i never expected anything to blossom out of it. but it did. not officially dating or anything because he moved to salt lake city to take a job for skywest airlines. still very much confused about what we are going to do, let alone what i'm going to do about it. because it isn't just him that i'm interested in. met dustin johnson through brit up here because he had gone to western and known her for quite awhile. and somewhere along that line, we started hanging out a little more...and boom...now i'm stuck between having to essentially choose between them. i can't juggle two boys because let's face it i can barely handle one. i'm such a mess when it comes to boys. danny is loveable and laidback and essentially my type of guy, but dustin is sweet and cuddly and everything i never expected to like. so i'm stuck and confused with that. guess it will all work out in the end.
so this move is proving to evolve into the world of kelsey more and more each day. i think it's going to be one hell of a ride :)