System Access Denied. Mission Aborted.
The thought of someone else being where I should be makes me miserable. I never meant for things to go the way they have. It's kind of scary, how little control I've had in this whole thing. It was just supposed to be fun. I never meant to take it seriously. I never meant to care about it. I don't think I can do this again. Losing is just too big of a disappointment.