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Why is it that every time something good happens between Jason and I... a couple of hours later we are arguing or are mad at each other? I can't stand that. It seems like it's always my fault. And I feel really shitty. It seems like it's my fault for everything bad that happens between us. I'm not trying to. I don't want to. I'm sorry. I really am.
I didn't do anything wrong. I'm telling the truth whether he believes me or not. I'm sorry if he doesn't, but I'm not lying.
I love him so much. I wouldn't lie to him. I know I have, but he already knew. I'm not a very good liar. I can't lie to Jason. I don't want to live my life without him. That's why I don't lie to him. I can't be without him. He's the one I need... forever.
I'm just a big fuck up I guess. I just fuck everything up. I don't mean to. I don't want to.
Great I just found out something I didn't want to hear. Jason said if he finds out I'm lying, then it's over. I don't want that. I'm not lying. Please don't do this. He said he would be checking and he will find out if I'm lying. Why doesn't he believe me? I'm telling the truth. I don't want to lose him. I'm not happy without him. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say. All I can say is that I'm not lying. I'm sorry if that's not good enough. I guess I'm not good enough. I love him so much. I don't want to lose him over him not believing me when I tell the truth. I don't want to lose him at all.
I can't do this. I have to go.
I didn't do anything wrong. I'm telling the truth whether he believes me or not. I'm sorry if he doesn't, but I'm not lying.
I love him so much. I wouldn't lie to him. I know I have, but he already knew. I'm not a very good liar. I can't lie to Jason. I don't want to live my life without him. That's why I don't lie to him. I can't be without him. He's the one I need... forever.
I'm just a big fuck up I guess. I just fuck everything up. I don't mean to. I don't want to.
Great I just found out something I didn't want to hear. Jason said if he finds out I'm lying, then it's over. I don't want that. I'm not lying. Please don't do this. He said he would be checking and he will find out if I'm lying. Why doesn't he believe me? I'm telling the truth. I don't want to lose him. I'm not happy without him. I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say. All I can say is that I'm not lying. I'm sorry if that's not good enough. I guess I'm not good enough. I love him so much. I don't want to lose him over him not believing me when I tell the truth. I don't want to lose him at all.
I can't do this. I have to go.