emily

[darkbutlovely]

she sits in a heap
on the living room couch
watching love movie after love movie
trying to forget her own heart.
her body now frail
she thinks of nothing
and everything.
the gnawing ache in her stomach never leaves her alone
the one that doesn't let her sleep
the one that takes away her appetite.
her head down in defeat
she tries desperately to lift it
but finds she is nothing worth looking at.
she wants to forget it all.
wants to forget what used to give her wings to fly
what sent her heart sailing
on love's passionate waters.
she was a bottle filled with joy
now emptied and thrown aside.
broken.
a pile of a million pieces.
remembering him and how her heart used to skip a beat everytime he called
the way he flooded her thoughts every waking moment of the day

the way his smile always melted her

laughing
cuddling
dancing.

then,
it was over.

the floor has beed pulled from beneath her
suddenly,
it was all a dream.
and now a nightmare
she can't wake up from.
her heart fails.
she falls to the side
and fades away.
i am a mere shadow