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I love kevin more then anything. hes my whole life. my everything. he means absolutly everything to me. so why is it that i always fuck up. im always getting mad at him. always yelling at him. why cant i just fucking controll myself. i fucking hate it. i hate the fights. i hate it. one day hes going to get sick of me just getting mad at a little thing. and just not want to be with me any more. i would die if that happend. i couldnt live. losing him would be like losing everything ive ever had. he's the best thing thats ever happend to me. ive never been treated so good by any one. and im not use to it. but i like it. i just hate the feeling that i might lose him to my stupidity. to my stupid temper. i fucking hate it. i couldnt bare it. i cant stand the thought of him leaving me. i just cant. i cant i cant i cant i cant. i cant :'(..... i try so hard not to lose my temper with him. over something small or stupid. but i get that from my mom. i hate it. i really do. god am i pathetic or what. i just dont want to lose the man i love and want to be with for the rest of my life. he's my everything.