vacation, yaaay!!!!
You won't believe it, but I'm on vacaaaaation!!!!! For two hole weeks I don't have to get up early or work 'til midnight... noooo I just get up whenever I want and go to bed whenever I want. Yaaaay! *happy happy*
Ok, you people still keep asking me why I write my blog in english. It's simple. Do you use your english knowledge in you everyday life? No? I do. I HAVE to use my english because I'm working in the hotel business and we also have guests from other countries than just from germany. And writing my blog is like training my knowledge because I don't go to school anymore... just this vocational school but you don't really learn english there *rolling eyes*. Now you know, people, so stop asking me ;)
So what's the plan for my vacation?! First of all: sleeping, sleeping, loads of food, more chocolate, shopping for chritz' birthday and for christmas (yeah... it's time again *snuffle*)
In more words:
I'll force myself to get out and find some presents for everyone 'til friday. I also have to get a present for our "THUMB Secret Santa"... it's gonna be fun fun fun =)
On friday and saturday I have to go to school but on saturday I'll leave school before it's out because chritz and I will go to cologne and to the Maritim there to check-in early. The Evanescence-concert is in the evening, so we have more time left to go shopping and to the spa :D And theeeeen there's concert-time and I'll see Amy Lee and her guys on stage! I'm soooo looking forward to that, yay yay yay!!! *jumps*
We'll stay there 'til sundaynoon.
We're also planning to visit jos the following week. It will be so much fun 'cause jc, chritz, jos and I are planning to bake some cookies and going ice skating... aaaaaah as always... it's going to be fun! And I'm so exited =)
Ah yeah... I bought a new coat last week and André helped me by finding one. It's a nice one... not what I wanted and imagined, but nice. So thanks André for coming with me.
I'm listening to Evanescence - Breath no more for a hundred times now and it's making me sort of uncomfortable because there's something I have to say:
André... I have to apologize to you. I sometimes use you as punching ball when I'm frustrated and that's just so wrong. I know that and I want to apologize for the things I say to you when I have bad days. I'm sorry. I know some of the words really hurt you. I just sit there... angry, full of rage and most of all vulnerable. I just want to feel alive and powerfull again and then there's you who really cares about me and it's just so easy to feel powerfull when I hurt you. That's so not fair, I know that, but I don't know why it's always you who has to suffer. I am sorry. I hope you'll forgive me one more time. =/
And for the rest of you:
Considering my vacation I'm very sure that this won't be my last entry in november ;)
I'm looking forward to that and hope that someone actually reads this :D
So thanks for 'listening' ;)
Becci
Ok, you people still keep asking me why I write my blog in english. It's simple. Do you use your english knowledge in you everyday life? No? I do. I HAVE to use my english because I'm working in the hotel business and we also have guests from other countries than just from germany. And writing my blog is like training my knowledge because I don't go to school anymore... just this vocational school but you don't really learn english there *rolling eyes*. Now you know, people, so stop asking me ;)
So what's the plan for my vacation?! First of all: sleeping, sleeping, loads of food, more chocolate, shopping for chritz' birthday and for christmas (yeah... it's time again *snuffle*)
In more words:
I'll force myself to get out and find some presents for everyone 'til friday. I also have to get a present for our "THUMB Secret Santa"... it's gonna be fun fun fun =)
On friday and saturday I have to go to school but on saturday I'll leave school before it's out because chritz and I will go to cologne and to the Maritim there to check-in early. The Evanescence-concert is in the evening, so we have more time left to go shopping and to the spa :D And theeeeen there's concert-time and I'll see Amy Lee and her guys on stage! I'm soooo looking forward to that, yay yay yay!!! *jumps*
We'll stay there 'til sundaynoon.
We're also planning to visit jos the following week. It will be so much fun 'cause jc, chritz, jos and I are planning to bake some cookies and going ice skating... aaaaaah as always... it's going to be fun! And I'm so exited =)
Ah yeah... I bought a new coat last week and André helped me by finding one. It's a nice one... not what I wanted and imagined, but nice. So thanks André for coming with me.
I'm listening to Evanescence - Breath no more for a hundred times now and it's making me sort of uncomfortable because there's something I have to say:
André... I have to apologize to you. I sometimes use you as punching ball when I'm frustrated and that's just so wrong. I know that and I want to apologize for the things I say to you when I have bad days. I'm sorry. I know some of the words really hurt you. I just sit there... angry, full of rage and most of all vulnerable. I just want to feel alive and powerfull again and then there's you who really cares about me and it's just so easy to feel powerfull when I hurt you. That's so not fair, I know that, but I don't know why it's always you who has to suffer. I am sorry. I hope you'll forgive me one more time. =/
And for the rest of you:
Considering my vacation I'm very sure that this won't be my last entry in november ;)
I'm looking forward to that and hope that someone actually reads this :D
So thanks for 'listening' ;)
Becci