i enjoyed myself
last night, i finally decided not to blow off Matt. Matt hat. not only did i have a good time, but i met a hot guy. haha, some kid i went to school with when i was way younger.
but besides that. i remember thinking that he never had loved me. after last night i know he did. it was obvious.
it was a great to feeling to see how much he still thinks about me and i think about him. it was surprising. i just remember driving home with a smile on my face and feeling really happy. i didnt care that it prob wasnt going to go anywhere. i just got taken back to the days of my life i loved most. its been a good year and then some since i have felt that fire.
i dont wanna over look stuff, i just want to sit back and remember his voice and the laughs and enjoy the time i had with him.
im gonna have plenty of people reminding me of the hell i went through. im pretty sure i can handle myself. i mean i turned him down so many other times.
im glad i spent time getting ready, i wasnt going to make it easy for him. i know i looked good. his mom, yeah his mom, said i looked grown up. haha. she still had the annabelle cup and was telling me she was just talking about me cuz of her potato peeler i got for her. she was so excited to see me and i was so nervous-like i was meeting her all over again- that i could here my voice shaking. stupid i know.
sometimes i wonder if he reads this. its open. i doubt it. i would be so embarassed. anyone could easyilly read through my past years, not like u would want to, and see what made my life so good then.
well everything happens for a reason. please dont turn out to be another, i went to college and am cool jerk. for the most part i saw Matt. but chewy was still in there.
im glad to say though, that, it want just me "thinking" both of us felt something. its still there and its going to be hard to ignore.
like katie said, i was prob never meant to get over him. he was my highschool sweetheart. im glad i took that leap to hang out though.
but besides that. i remember thinking that he never had loved me. after last night i know he did. it was obvious.
it was a great to feeling to see how much he still thinks about me and i think about him. it was surprising. i just remember driving home with a smile on my face and feeling really happy. i didnt care that it prob wasnt going to go anywhere. i just got taken back to the days of my life i loved most. its been a good year and then some since i have felt that fire.
i dont wanna over look stuff, i just want to sit back and remember his voice and the laughs and enjoy the time i had with him.
im gonna have plenty of people reminding me of the hell i went through. im pretty sure i can handle myself. i mean i turned him down so many other times.
im glad i spent time getting ready, i wasnt going to make it easy for him. i know i looked good. his mom, yeah his mom, said i looked grown up. haha. she still had the annabelle cup and was telling me she was just talking about me cuz of her potato peeler i got for her. she was so excited to see me and i was so nervous-like i was meeting her all over again- that i could here my voice shaking. stupid i know.
sometimes i wonder if he reads this. its open. i doubt it. i would be so embarassed. anyone could easyilly read through my past years, not like u would want to, and see what made my life so good then.
well everything happens for a reason. please dont turn out to be another, i went to college and am cool jerk. for the most part i saw Matt. but chewy was still in there.
im glad to say though, that, it want just me "thinking" both of us felt something. its still there and its going to be hard to ignore.
like katie said, i was prob never meant to get over him. he was my highschool sweetheart. im glad i took that leap to hang out though.