What am I doing?!
I am so lost. ive been lost for years now. i felt whole for a whole 3 months but then he cheated and went to jail.
i cant believe i am still hanging on. maybe its like katie said "im not meant to get over it"
then what am i meant to do?
i think i am hurting someone close to me, steve. i can see he loves me and cares- but i kind of well, dont care. ouch huh? i just go threw the motions and try to find the good things in life which are rare now days- and i keep telling myself- this is wrong its not right, we dont click.
i thought about calling joe today. today is the day he went to jail last year and we fell apart go figure. just to call him to see what he wants. stupid.
fall just isnt my season. get this: its my favorite season-beautiful- but i find myself depressed and usually broken up with or im breaking up with someone. HA!
i think its my season to be alone or something.
i wish i still lived at sergios. i was soo happy there :(
i dont know where life is going but i am can almost promise you that my next post if not sometime this month again will be bad prob.
i just dont know how to do anything anymore...for me... poopy
and p.s. i miss my friends :'( and a home and my dogs :(
i cant believe i am still hanging on. maybe its like katie said "im not meant to get over it"
then what am i meant to do?
i think i am hurting someone close to me, steve. i can see he loves me and cares- but i kind of well, dont care. ouch huh? i just go threw the motions and try to find the good things in life which are rare now days- and i keep telling myself- this is wrong its not right, we dont click.
i thought about calling joe today. today is the day he went to jail last year and we fell apart go figure. just to call him to see what he wants. stupid.
fall just isnt my season. get this: its my favorite season-beautiful- but i find myself depressed and usually broken up with or im breaking up with someone. HA!
i think its my season to be alone or something.
i wish i still lived at sergios. i was soo happy there :(
i dont know where life is going but i am can almost promise you that my next post if not sometime this month again will be bad prob.
i just dont know how to do anything anymore...for me... poopy
and p.s. i miss my friends :'( and a home and my dogs :(