Have written in a long time
Im on anti-depresents, and Im soo sad lately.
No one really knows. I don't want to embarrass myself talking about it to anyone. Maybe I will splurge when I get stupidly drunk or have a roof sit and think.
Everything is soo confusing.
Im gonna update this and print it out for my journal journal I guess. Just the old stuff.
But yeah, hopefully this will be good for me.
I just feel locked up inside lately with all these crazy thoughts.
Breakdown? O yeah, its on its way. Don't be surprised if I go dissapearing for a few days.
I hate living this way.
Ok well off to cookies and milk in the car.
Joe got me a ring today cuz last night he felt bad for blowing up on me. He told me "fuck you" all because I didnt make a decision with him about hanging out with the girls this weekend. I told him to get his shit and leave, but well, IDK what happend really. I just know that I don't really wanna be around him for a bit. I wanna be mad for a while and I need to start laying my foot down.
But he got me a ring. It looks almost identical to the one I got before. Its nothing too special but it does have meaning. Hopefully I will get something better later. I sound stuck up but really, it was like $25 and from the pawn shop.
I really so hope that the when I come home he is acting the same, sorry for last night. I dont want just another, o i was drunk, got way out of control, ill make it up tomorrow thing again and again.
Cookies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No one really knows. I don't want to embarrass myself talking about it to anyone. Maybe I will splurge when I get stupidly drunk or have a roof sit and think.
Everything is soo confusing.
Im gonna update this and print it out for my journal journal I guess. Just the old stuff.
But yeah, hopefully this will be good for me.
I just feel locked up inside lately with all these crazy thoughts.
Breakdown? O yeah, its on its way. Don't be surprised if I go dissapearing for a few days.
I hate living this way.
Ok well off to cookies and milk in the car.
Joe got me a ring today cuz last night he felt bad for blowing up on me. He told me "fuck you" all because I didnt make a decision with him about hanging out with the girls this weekend. I told him to get his shit and leave, but well, IDK what happend really. I just know that I don't really wanna be around him for a bit. I wanna be mad for a while and I need to start laying my foot down.
But he got me a ring. It looks almost identical to the one I got before. Its nothing too special but it does have meaning. Hopefully I will get something better later. I sound stuck up but really, it was like $25 and from the pawn shop.
I really so hope that the when I come home he is acting the same, sorry for last night. I dont want just another, o i was drunk, got way out of control, ill make it up tomorrow thing again and again.
Cookies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!