Oh life, sometimes you're just too much!
In Dunham lab working on the REL 253 midterm essays. Oooh, fun. NOT.
Life seems just so stressful, and I feel so behind. I wish I could say that I was looking forward to Spring Break to use as catch-up and some nice R+R, but I can't. Dropping Chamber would be stupid, and it would hurt the choir. I don't want to hurt them, just Porter. So maybe I'll just go up to him and say, "I justed wanted to let you know that I think you're a prideful, childish, lying bastard. I've lost almost all respect for you. I'm only staying in your choir because I can't let down the other members. You have an amazing talent as a conductor, but otherwise, you're a prick." That'd make my life.
I want to turn my PHI 282 paper into a graduate studies paper lol, well my original one combined with the new one, because I could go on for days. And I would LOVE to be able to actually sit down and reallly READ the stuff that I'm finding, rather than scanning because of time constraints.
I am starting to really like the idea of teaching Music Theory, and of incorporating philosophy, perception, emotion, life experiences, etc into it. I would have to teach at a college or university in order to do that, but that's chill. I still would love to perfom SOMETHING (music theatre, professional choir, plays, an orchestra), teach marching band, travel a lot, maybe teach abroad, get into photography or even journalism. AND foreign languages and other cultures but whatevs. We'll see I guess, I have a LOT of life to figure that out. Well, assuming that I don't die early. Not to be depressing, but still.
Granted, the Rebirth of the Earth's Natural Cycle is December 23, 2012.. so says the Mayan Calendar. Thus... like an Ice Age and some other shit. But who knows!
Life is just so damn stressful! Emotionally because Love is far away and that makes it difficult to express and to feel, and sometimes we're not avaible or talking is difficult. Mentally because there's so much school going on, and people and friends and professors and WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH LIFE. Spiritually because I don't have time to explore it at all. Physically because I feel like I don't have the time to work out nor the ability to keep the routine because I suck at life. Socially because I want to hang out with people but I also have to do things, and I want to hang out with Chris but he's far away. Nutritionally because I'm trying really hard to eat healthy and ignore cravings, and it's difficult to get into it, so that sometimes throws me off. Academically because of school and being behind on work or making too many lists, or because there's too many classes that I want to take.
BAH. Things to do. Life to do lol.
But I do like Indian techno remixes, and good conversations with Jamez, working in the library because it's so quiet and calm, breakfast! and yogurt. I can finally eat yogurt by itself lol.
Okay, back to work.
Life seems just so stressful, and I feel so behind. I wish I could say that I was looking forward to Spring Break to use as catch-up and some nice R+R, but I can't. Dropping Chamber would be stupid, and it would hurt the choir. I don't want to hurt them, just Porter. So maybe I'll just go up to him and say, "I justed wanted to let you know that I think you're a prideful, childish, lying bastard. I've lost almost all respect for you. I'm only staying in your choir because I can't let down the other members. You have an amazing talent as a conductor, but otherwise, you're a prick." That'd make my life.
I want to turn my PHI 282 paper into a graduate studies paper lol, well my original one combined with the new one, because I could go on for days. And I would LOVE to be able to actually sit down and reallly READ the stuff that I'm finding, rather than scanning because of time constraints.
I am starting to really like the idea of teaching Music Theory, and of incorporating philosophy, perception, emotion, life experiences, etc into it. I would have to teach at a college or university in order to do that, but that's chill. I still would love to perfom SOMETHING (music theatre, professional choir, plays, an orchestra), teach marching band, travel a lot, maybe teach abroad, get into photography or even journalism. AND foreign languages and other cultures but whatevs. We'll see I guess, I have a LOT of life to figure that out. Well, assuming that I don't die early. Not to be depressing, but still.
Granted, the Rebirth of the Earth's Natural Cycle is December 23, 2012.. so says the Mayan Calendar. Thus... like an Ice Age and some other shit. But who knows!
Life is just so damn stressful! Emotionally because Love is far away and that makes it difficult to express and to feel, and sometimes we're not avaible or talking is difficult. Mentally because there's so much school going on, and people and friends and professors and WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH LIFE. Spiritually because I don't have time to explore it at all. Physically because I feel like I don't have the time to work out nor the ability to keep the routine because I suck at life. Socially because I want to hang out with people but I also have to do things, and I want to hang out with Chris but he's far away. Nutritionally because I'm trying really hard to eat healthy and ignore cravings, and it's difficult to get into it, so that sometimes throws me off. Academically because of school and being behind on work or making too many lists, or because there's too many classes that I want to take.
BAH. Things to do. Life to do lol.
But I do like Indian techno remixes, and good conversations with Jamez, working in the library because it's so quiet and calm, breakfast! and yogurt. I can finally eat yogurt by itself lol.
Okay, back to work.