i <3 you
There is something completely unexplainable that words will never be able to describe going on in my life right now. I think most languages would use "love" to describe it.. that word has so much more meaning than any other word I have ever spoken, written, read, seen, heard, or felt in my entire life. It has more meaning than I think a lot of people give it.
I was told "your opinion doesnt hurt me" and was asked to promise that I will always give it. That I am loved and give love, and that that alone is so wonderful. And.. I cried.. because I'm the luckiest girl in the world, because I have a man who tells me flat up that he needs my opinion, that he wants everything to mutual. It's about compromises, equal give and take, a balance.. To be told how important it is that my opinion be heard, or how important it is that we have a balance and love each other mutually, and to make me pinky swear and promise that I will... I can't express what it means to me.
It surprises me how some habits carry over, and how some wounds never really heal. And the wounds and habits that came about from fear of losing love where what made it harder to keep it before.
I guess it's all about growing and learning...
I've never had someone strive so hard to make me be so open and honest. To know and remind me that it's important, that it's necessary and needed and wanted and that love is too wonderful to let something silly get in the middle of her. It's important to let yourself be open, and to be free... It's something that I've been working on for a while; it's not easy being so open. But I will say that, in the situation I am in now, I've never felt so allowed or wanted or loved to do so...
I feel alive. I feel understood. I feel connected. I feel secure. I feel safe. I feel happy. I feel complimented. I feel complete.
I am indescribably in love wih a boy named Christopher James McGuire, and I am so happy that I cannot keep it in :)
I was told "your opinion doesnt hurt me" and was asked to promise that I will always give it. That I am loved and give love, and that that alone is so wonderful. And.. I cried.. because I'm the luckiest girl in the world, because I have a man who tells me flat up that he needs my opinion, that he wants everything to mutual. It's about compromises, equal give and take, a balance.. To be told how important it is that my opinion be heard, or how important it is that we have a balance and love each other mutually, and to make me pinky swear and promise that I will... I can't express what it means to me.
It surprises me how some habits carry over, and how some wounds never really heal. And the wounds and habits that came about from fear of losing love where what made it harder to keep it before.
I guess it's all about growing and learning...
I've never had someone strive so hard to make me be so open and honest. To know and remind me that it's important, that it's necessary and needed and wanted and that love is too wonderful to let something silly get in the middle of her. It's important to let yourself be open, and to be free... It's something that I've been working on for a while; it's not easy being so open. But I will say that, in the situation I am in now, I've never felt so allowed or wanted or loved to do so...
I feel alive. I feel understood. I feel connected. I feel secure. I feel safe. I feel happy. I feel complimented. I feel complete.
I am indescribably in love wih a boy named Christopher James McGuire, and I am so happy that I cannot keep it in :)