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Life is good.
I've been quite busy lately. Went to Virginia, Myrtle Beach, Raleigh, Avalon. Ryan's birthday party, leadership meeting, first day of band camp '06, Grandaddy's 80th birthday party/reunion.. nuts. Aah, lots of fun, lots of good times, lots of happiness, lots of busy days and full days, lots of stress, lots of love, lots of life.
I saw the ocean again after not seeing it for so many years. Breathtaking at night.. endless horizon and empty space. It just feels like everything is okay and you can go anywhere your heart will let you fly.
I love:
When they all wave at the porch while we drive away. The little things and traditions. Smiling and laughing. Being around marching band again. Playing with Chris' little cousins. Having cool friends and Avalon friends, and Avalon. Having a wonderful, sweet, caring, witty, funny, joking, and-lots-else boyfriend, and that he lets me meet and spend time with his family and friends, and that they like me :) Getting little messages that brighten my day, or hearing a friendly and warm voice. Playing Euchre, Texas Holdem, Oh Hell, Crazy Rummy, and other games with Chris and Ryan and Marie and family and friends. Meeting extended family like Adam and Candice and Reid and Amy and Tyler. Dancing in my car to awesome music on a cool night drive. Music in general, and getting goosebumps from chords and things (like :09 to :18 in this song). Advice that I can give to help someone, and advice that is given to me. Trying to learn the guitar. Remembering good times, good friends, good moments, and good things. Cuddling and sleeping :) When I can cook for a bunch of people. Making other people happy and seeing them be happy. My sister, even if we aren't as close as I'd like us to be. My past and what has made me who I am. That there are so many things I am interested in and/or good at so that I have the opportunity to choose where I'd like to go in life. That I have wonderful friends, an awesome roomie at college, and people that care about me. When people remember who I am. When complete strangers smile back or wave back, and when complete strangers are nice and strike up conversation. Food! be it homecooked meals and family recipes or take out Chinese or half-off sushi or cold spaghetti. When I'm not sick and I can actually sing somewhat. Encouragement, reassurance, support, helping hands. Love, honesty, trust, warmth, understanding. My family and my friends. That I have a lot more things than I could ever list ever, especially since I'm tired.
But yes, driving home tonight listening to awesome music and having a blast, I realized that life is good. Even though I'm confused about my future, about college, about career paths, about money issues, about little things... life is good. And I'm very lucky for all that I have and for all that I know and have known, and those that love me and allow me to love them.
Yay.
BEDTIME because tomorrow is day 2 of MPHS Band Camp :)
I've been quite busy lately. Went to Virginia, Myrtle Beach, Raleigh, Avalon. Ryan's birthday party, leadership meeting, first day of band camp '06, Grandaddy's 80th birthday party/reunion.. nuts. Aah, lots of fun, lots of good times, lots of happiness, lots of busy days and full days, lots of stress, lots of love, lots of life.
I saw the ocean again after not seeing it for so many years. Breathtaking at night.. endless horizon and empty space. It just feels like everything is okay and you can go anywhere your heart will let you fly.
I love:
When they all wave at the porch while we drive away. The little things and traditions. Smiling and laughing. Being around marching band again. Playing with Chris' little cousins. Having cool friends and Avalon friends, and Avalon. Having a wonderful, sweet, caring, witty, funny, joking, and-lots-else boyfriend, and that he lets me meet and spend time with his family and friends, and that they like me :) Getting little messages that brighten my day, or hearing a friendly and warm voice. Playing Euchre, Texas Holdem, Oh Hell, Crazy Rummy, and other games with Chris and Ryan and Marie and family and friends. Meeting extended family like Adam and Candice and Reid and Amy and Tyler. Dancing in my car to awesome music on a cool night drive. Music in general, and getting goosebumps from chords and things (like :09 to :18 in this song). Advice that I can give to help someone, and advice that is given to me. Trying to learn the guitar. Remembering good times, good friends, good moments, and good things. Cuddling and sleeping :) When I can cook for a bunch of people. Making other people happy and seeing them be happy. My sister, even if we aren't as close as I'd like us to be. My past and what has made me who I am. That there are so many things I am interested in and/or good at so that I have the opportunity to choose where I'd like to go in life. That I have wonderful friends, an awesome roomie at college, and people that care about me. When people remember who I am. When complete strangers smile back or wave back, and when complete strangers are nice and strike up conversation. Food! be it homecooked meals and family recipes or take out Chinese or half-off sushi or cold spaghetti. When I'm not sick and I can actually sing somewhat. Encouragement, reassurance, support, helping hands. Love, honesty, trust, warmth, understanding. My family and my friends. That I have a lot more things than I could ever list ever, especially since I'm tired.
But yes, driving home tonight listening to awesome music and having a blast, I realized that life is good. Even though I'm confused about my future, about college, about career paths, about money issues, about little things... life is good. And I'm very lucky for all that I have and for all that I know and have known, and those that love me and allow me to love them.
Yay.
BEDTIME because tomorrow is day 2 of MPHS Band Camp :)