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Alex Casat called me. I miss her.
Beth Loring called me, about the first competition. That meant a lot to me. I miss her.
I miss the band, my band... I miss that family.
I miss Avalon kids. I can't wait for EO and Morsander.
Random.
There are some things that happen in life that you don't know whether or not they are right. You don't know if you are making the better choice, or the poorer choice. You don't know what it will mean for the immediate future, let alone the far away future. You don't know.. you just don't know. But some things happen, and you just have to take it and go. Sometimes it feels right when it happens... sometimes it feels like you made the right choice when it happens, you feel like nothing else could be better, nothing else could have been a better path to walk on, nothing else could've given you what this has...
But then after the fact you wonder whether or not you made the right decision. You wonder whether another course of action would have made more sense. If perhaps the other choice would not feel the way this one does. You wonder if there is a way around it. You wonder if there is a way to counter it, to make it less painful, to make it less wrong. You wonder if it even has to be dealt with.
My ambiguity does not really have a reason. I'm just listening to Madrigals, Ghost, Bunnies, Sorry So Sorry.... it's making me mellow out, making me think. I really want it to be Autumn. Although, I don't really have Autumnworthy clothing, but I can hit up a Goodwill or something. One day. I have some work to do today, like Psychology, Theory, Math, FYF, oboe and piano, laundry. I wonder if I'll do it. I was up way to late last night.. until like.. 7:30 this morning. I wanted to go to bed, but I ended up listening to people jam, watching a movie, hanging out, having intellectual conversations, meandering about campus, discussing the universe, hanging out, and finally crashing with Howie Day in the background. I woke up to Alex's call at like 12:45. Yikes. Oh well, not sleeping can be fun.
I lost my student ID. I wonder if I can still try to eat food. I emailed Stan about it, but if it doesn't turn up, I'll have to go somewhere and buy another. *SIGH* And don't spend the night on Bald Rock. Fyi. Well... time to do things I suppose. Maybe I'll try and go create something.
Beth Loring called me, about the first competition. That meant a lot to me. I miss her.
I miss the band, my band... I miss that family.
I miss Avalon kids. I can't wait for EO and Morsander.
Random.
There are some things that happen in life that you don't know whether or not they are right. You don't know if you are making the better choice, or the poorer choice. You don't know what it will mean for the immediate future, let alone the far away future. You don't know.. you just don't know. But some things happen, and you just have to take it and go. Sometimes it feels right when it happens... sometimes it feels like you made the right choice when it happens, you feel like nothing else could be better, nothing else could have been a better path to walk on, nothing else could've given you what this has...
But then after the fact you wonder whether or not you made the right decision. You wonder whether another course of action would have made more sense. If perhaps the other choice would not feel the way this one does. You wonder if there is a way around it. You wonder if there is a way to counter it, to make it less painful, to make it less wrong. You wonder if it even has to be dealt with.
My ambiguity does not really have a reason. I'm just listening to Madrigals, Ghost, Bunnies, Sorry So Sorry.... it's making me mellow out, making me think. I really want it to be Autumn. Although, I don't really have Autumnworthy clothing, but I can hit up a Goodwill or something. One day. I have some work to do today, like Psychology, Theory, Math, FYF, oboe and piano, laundry. I wonder if I'll do it. I was up way to late last night.. until like.. 7:30 this morning. I wanted to go to bed, but I ended up listening to people jam, watching a movie, hanging out, having intellectual conversations, meandering about campus, discussing the universe, hanging out, and finally crashing with Howie Day in the background. I woke up to Alex's call at like 12:45. Yikes. Oh well, not sleeping can be fun.
I lost my student ID. I wonder if I can still try to eat food. I emailed Stan about it, but if it doesn't turn up, I'll have to go somewhere and buy another. *SIGH* And don't spend the night on Bald Rock. Fyi. Well... time to do things I suppose. Maybe I'll try and go create something.