The day after....and the first day of the rest of my life
They say that certain things can cause you to have life-changing experiences. I'm extremely pleased to say that I have had one. It was unlike anything I've experienced before.
Television, news, banter, decorations, homes, clothing, beauty, most of the world as most people think of it...it's all just static. It can be amusing, enjoyable, it can touch your heart or make you angry. It can frustrate you or hurt you, but only (as cliche as this sounds) if you let it.
It matters not what we look like, or where we live. How much money we have...how we are perceived by the random passer-by in a grocery store or at the mall. Perhaps we like decorating our bodies by wearing cute clothes and makeup and accessories...but these only matter if you want them to. If these things make you truly happy, and you are at peace with them, and don't let them be a controlling factor in your life...then we should all enjoy them. Most importantly, we should understand why we're enjoying them.
Money only matters because, unless we can honestly be happy living in a hand-made cabin in the middle of land given to us, where we can make everything we need from nature, and gather our own food and necessities...then in this day and age, money *is* a necessity. It's sad and disappointing to know that even the enlightened are truly in need of a cash flow...but we needn't spend frivilously. I only learned this now...I wish I had known it years ago. But I won't waste time on regret, only moving forward and growing from what I have learned and come to be at peace with.
I realized my...not so much purpose in life, but what I will have to do, and be. And I can honestly say today that I'm content and (I know I keep saying it, but) at peace with it. I am a woman who is a nurturer, and who will grow to be a wife, a mother, a nurturer, a teacher, and the rock of my family. There will be tough times ahead, but I believe, in full honesty, that I will rise to meet and defend myself and my family from the trials and tribulations of life. My children will not fully grasp what I do and why, and they may think I'm crazy for it, but I will know what I am doing, and do the absolute best for myself and them. That's fine...the younger generation never understands why the older generation acts the way it does until they're of the age of the older generation they don't understand. With age (or, in actuality, experience) comes understanding. I do not claim to be of a wizened state, as I am still in the first quarter century of my life, but I am open to learning. And this, I believe, will be the cause of my success.
I will have to be strong, and continue to understand life.
I will begin working to make my body match my mind's eye vision of myself. This alone will assist myself in being in complete peace, as while I'm uncomfortable in my own shell, it will be difficult to be comfortable with the world. When I can completely cease my worry of my appearance, it will no longer be a part of me, and will leave me free to enjoy my life as I should. I am displeased that I have allowed my own impulses and, yes, laziness to allow myself to appear as something that I am not. That I have allowed myself to be trapped inside a shell that is unhealthy and, for a while now, content with being so.
I do enjoy food. It is a part of me, and I'm pleased to find happiness in food. Food, while its main purpose is to provide sustenance to the body, is a gift to our senses. Its smell can arouse pleasant memories. Its appearance can be an art form. Its consistency is part of the experience. The sound of a meal being prepared, sizzling and popping or bubbling, or even the sounds of the silverware or dishes it will be served with, can be a delight. And last, but definitely far from least, comes the taste...and delicious food, well, we all know what it can do to our minds, our bodies, even the chemicals released in your bodies.
It should be savored, though, and not eaten with abandon or from boredom. We're told to take time to stop and smell the roses...but in this fat-fearing and rush-based society, it's rare that a gem set in a growing mind is to take time to stop and enjoy the food.
I'm becoming at peace with myself, and so, becoming at peace with the world. Things are unfair, sure, but what matters is how we look at it. Was our stroke of bad luck, perhaps, the universe returning negative energy? The idea of karma is not one that should be handled lightly. In all our deliberations, we should contemplate the possibilities of outcomes. If we are handed money, will it truly be enjoyed? If we are handed a bad situation, will we sink under the weight of it, or work over it piece by piece until a resolution that's peaceful for all involved can be reached?
Our lives are not measured by our accomplishments and life overall, as a whole, but by how we treat each day, each situation, each person we meet, and each trial that comes through our life.
If we take the things we are undeserving of...
Try to control things which we have no way of controlling...
Treat others with disrespect...
Feel poorly about those of other mindsets (unless, of course, they are poorly impacting others)...
Abuse the gifts of goodness...
Abuse drugs or alcohol...
Look in the mirror and hate what we see...
Look at others and hate what we see...
Spend our lives in the mundane, focusing on the superficial and the things which are, in the grand scheme of things, unimportant...
Then we will have abused our gift of life, and will have passed in and out of this plane of existence without learning, growing, or contributing anything at all to the betterment of ourselves or others.
We should not take life for granted. We should not have unwanted children. We should not copulate with those we have no feelings for.
We should not abuse or manipulate lives we have created. Creating life is not frivilous...the act of creating life says that we will hone and love and respect and teach that life we are creating.
I'm not quite sure how to end all of this. However, I believe it needs not an ending, for I'm not saying everything on my mind, or everything learned. I am only just beginning.
Television, news, banter, decorations, homes, clothing, beauty, most of the world as most people think of it...it's all just static. It can be amusing, enjoyable, it can touch your heart or make you angry. It can frustrate you or hurt you, but only (as cliche as this sounds) if you let it.
It matters not what we look like, or where we live. How much money we have...how we are perceived by the random passer-by in a grocery store or at the mall. Perhaps we like decorating our bodies by wearing cute clothes and makeup and accessories...but these only matter if you want them to. If these things make you truly happy, and you are at peace with them, and don't let them be a controlling factor in your life...then we should all enjoy them. Most importantly, we should understand why we're enjoying them.
Money only matters because, unless we can honestly be happy living in a hand-made cabin in the middle of land given to us, where we can make everything we need from nature, and gather our own food and necessities...then in this day and age, money *is* a necessity. It's sad and disappointing to know that even the enlightened are truly in need of a cash flow...but we needn't spend frivilously. I only learned this now...I wish I had known it years ago. But I won't waste time on regret, only moving forward and growing from what I have learned and come to be at peace with.
I realized my...not so much purpose in life, but what I will have to do, and be. And I can honestly say today that I'm content and (I know I keep saying it, but) at peace with it. I am a woman who is a nurturer, and who will grow to be a wife, a mother, a nurturer, a teacher, and the rock of my family. There will be tough times ahead, but I believe, in full honesty, that I will rise to meet and defend myself and my family from the trials and tribulations of life. My children will not fully grasp what I do and why, and they may think I'm crazy for it, but I will know what I am doing, and do the absolute best for myself and them. That's fine...the younger generation never understands why the older generation acts the way it does until they're of the age of the older generation they don't understand. With age (or, in actuality, experience) comes understanding. I do not claim to be of a wizened state, as I am still in the first quarter century of my life, but I am open to learning. And this, I believe, will be the cause of my success.
I will have to be strong, and continue to understand life.
I will begin working to make my body match my mind's eye vision of myself. This alone will assist myself in being in complete peace, as while I'm uncomfortable in my own shell, it will be difficult to be comfortable with the world. When I can completely cease my worry of my appearance, it will no longer be a part of me, and will leave me free to enjoy my life as I should. I am displeased that I have allowed my own impulses and, yes, laziness to allow myself to appear as something that I am not. That I have allowed myself to be trapped inside a shell that is unhealthy and, for a while now, content with being so.
I do enjoy food. It is a part of me, and I'm pleased to find happiness in food. Food, while its main purpose is to provide sustenance to the body, is a gift to our senses. Its smell can arouse pleasant memories. Its appearance can be an art form. Its consistency is part of the experience. The sound of a meal being prepared, sizzling and popping or bubbling, or even the sounds of the silverware or dishes it will be served with, can be a delight. And last, but definitely far from least, comes the taste...and delicious food, well, we all know what it can do to our minds, our bodies, even the chemicals released in your bodies.
It should be savored, though, and not eaten with abandon or from boredom. We're told to take time to stop and smell the roses...but in this fat-fearing and rush-based society, it's rare that a gem set in a growing mind is to take time to stop and enjoy the food.
I'm becoming at peace with myself, and so, becoming at peace with the world. Things are unfair, sure, but what matters is how we look at it. Was our stroke of bad luck, perhaps, the universe returning negative energy? The idea of karma is not one that should be handled lightly. In all our deliberations, we should contemplate the possibilities of outcomes. If we are handed money, will it truly be enjoyed? If we are handed a bad situation, will we sink under the weight of it, or work over it piece by piece until a resolution that's peaceful for all involved can be reached?
Our lives are not measured by our accomplishments and life overall, as a whole, but by how we treat each day, each situation, each person we meet, and each trial that comes through our life.
If we take the things we are undeserving of...
Try to control things which we have no way of controlling...
Treat others with disrespect...
Feel poorly about those of other mindsets (unless, of course, they are poorly impacting others)...
Abuse the gifts of goodness...
Abuse drugs or alcohol...
Look in the mirror and hate what we see...
Look at others and hate what we see...
Spend our lives in the mundane, focusing on the superficial and the things which are, in the grand scheme of things, unimportant...
Then we will have abused our gift of life, and will have passed in and out of this plane of existence without learning, growing, or contributing anything at all to the betterment of ourselves or others.
We should not take life for granted. We should not have unwanted children. We should not copulate with those we have no feelings for.
We should not abuse or manipulate lives we have created. Creating life is not frivilous...the act of creating life says that we will hone and love and respect and teach that life we are creating.
I'm not quite sure how to end all of this. However, I believe it needs not an ending, for I'm not saying everything on my mind, or everything learned. I am only just beginning.