more great news lol jk
well as some remember, i took a test for a doctor and got diganosed with extreame depression. well thats only the beginnging.
i have noticed that i have not only agressive behiavor but i get angry easily now. i noticed it just like 5min ago when i was playing a game on ps2. i lost and i broke the controller in half and then i started punchin myself .
i also have an addiction. not weed, not caffine, everyone knew i were addicted to those. but i now have a new one. i am addicted to pills. mainly muscle relaxors(HydroCodone). some have herd of me takin them but its gettin worse. im takin 3000 to 4000mg in a setting. it was first to help me with my neck, back and knee. then it was to help me sleep. now i just take then cause they make me feel good and i cant stop.
i think the anger was triggered like 2 days ago when my moms bf hit me. dont worry he didnt leave anymarks and no i dont know y he did it. but after that ive gotten more angry and more of an asshole. some have noticed that when they have talked to me online. ive already lost 5 or 6 friends due to it.
right now im cravin caffine, pissed that i cant play my game, and i see myself glancin at the pill bottle. and yes i cant sleep.
oh happy day huh.
i have noticed that i have not only agressive behiavor but i get angry easily now. i noticed it just like 5min ago when i was playing a game on ps2. i lost and i broke the controller in half and then i started punchin myself .
i also have an addiction. not weed, not caffine, everyone knew i were addicted to those. but i now have a new one. i am addicted to pills. mainly muscle relaxors(HydroCodone). some have herd of me takin them but its gettin worse. im takin 3000 to 4000mg in a setting. it was first to help me with my neck, back and knee. then it was to help me sleep. now i just take then cause they make me feel good and i cant stop.
i think the anger was triggered like 2 days ago when my moms bf hit me. dont worry he didnt leave anymarks and no i dont know y he did it. but after that ive gotten more angry and more of an asshole. some have noticed that when they have talked to me online. ive already lost 5 or 6 friends due to it.
right now im cravin caffine, pissed that i cant play my game, and i see myself glancin at the pill bottle. and yes i cant sleep.
oh happy day huh.