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i don't mean 2 bug u w/ my depressin time rite now its just that i seem better after writting my dad is still in da hospital and its seems like hes going 2 be there a while i hate the fact that he promised me he was gonna take care of himself and when i tried 2 help him out he would get all moody and look where he ends up that we cancel out trip 2 Ensenada 4 new yrs cause he's in da hospital and b/c this isn't the 1st time this happens its like the 3 or 4 time i learned 2 hate the freakin hospital i can't be in one se me baja la presion or im just in tears cause i get flashbaks 4rm the very ast time my dad was in the hospital he was there 4 like bout 4-5 months it suxed and now it happens again and its the same bloody thing pancreas titus and now he also has piedras en la vesicula and a blood clog but since he is not stable they can't operate i went 2 vist him yesterday and again may i inform u i hate the hospital just seeing him there AGAIN brought me 2 tears 4 a while and when i came bak home 2 i hate this wish there was sumthing i could do but the pain is 2 much 4 him even though i get in fights w/ him and wish he was gone i fear that he might leave and i wouldn't be able 2 deal w/ that i know that 4 a fact and untop of all this ppl keep calling the house i don't mind but when my freakin g-ma 4rm Honduras calls she thinks im stupid i guess and only wants 2 talk 2 my mom 2 find out how hes doing and shes so rude i just wanna click on her but since its her son in da hospital i show some class i hate her but can't at the same time cause she's fam.. if i confused u or bored u through out this im sry i didn't mean it im just writting wut i can 2 just make some sence of my life