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I haven't brought anyone any joy from being here. Not myself, not anyone. Overall, things could be a lot better. I don't have feel this biting pain, I won't have to feel anything and best of all, I don't have to think anymore. I'll be burning a lot of bridges by doing this, but it's unlikely I've ever crossed any of them. I'm parasitic by nature, I leech off others and never returning the favour. Since I can remember, I would always ask 'Are you happy with me?', was anyone ever happy with me or anything I did?
God, I can't even remember the last time I was properly happy, or when I didn't have to question out loud or in my head if I was really worthwhile to a person.
I don't want to feel pain anymore. I don't want to have to feel everything I've inflicted on myself and others. I only end up hurting myself and everyone around me. So let me make this easier for you and I'll leave on my own accord so you don't have to choose between your options.
Guess this is what I get for wishful thinking, a false sense of peace and reality. This is so fucking cliche.
I'll do it in the bathtub so I don't leave stains in the carpet. I'll be careful.
God, I can't even remember the last time I was properly happy, or when I didn't have to question out loud or in my head if I was really worthwhile to a person.
I don't want to feel pain anymore. I don't want to have to feel everything I've inflicted on myself and others. I only end up hurting myself and everyone around me. So let me make this easier for you and I'll leave on my own accord so you don't have to choose between your options.
Guess this is what I get for wishful thinking, a false sense of peace and reality. This is so fucking cliche.
I'll do it in the bathtub so I don't leave stains in the carpet. I'll be careful.