Doesn't Matter...
I have more questions than I care to type out...more anger and pain than I'll ever admit to.
...I don't know who deserves the pain...the words, the guilt...but I know it's not me.
No greater fool than a fool in love...was it true all along? Was my closed door right from day one?
If there is anything I learned from watching all my fools it was to keep everything at arm's length, dance with one foot out the door...and so I did...and I failed. My feet are inside the line, every part of me bound to the last thing I ever thought I needed...sever the bond now and I'll bleed out...
It's not what I want...but do I even matter anymore??
Is the only one fighting for me, to have me....me?
...I don't know who deserves the pain...the words, the guilt...but I know it's not me.
No greater fool than a fool in love...was it true all along? Was my closed door right from day one?
If there is anything I learned from watching all my fools it was to keep everything at arm's length, dance with one foot out the door...and so I did...and I failed. My feet are inside the line, every part of me bound to the last thing I ever thought I needed...sever the bond now and I'll bleed out...
It's not what I want...but do I even matter anymore??
Is the only one fighting for me, to have me....me?