What Dreams May Come
I have much more deep seated thoughts today than this list will probably allude to. I'm really just caught in between where I want to be, and where I am.
I made up this list for my Web Design/Education Blog, but I want to add more personal touches to it here. I kicked off a lot of the technical crap no one cares about but me and leave you with this.
Teresa's Ongoing To Do List
The other thing is, I feel that I'm making all these plans without taking some other people into full consideration. Purely because I can't. I don't know where everyone else will be when I can actual make these plans a reality. What I'm wondering is, am I the only one?
I know Aaron/Emily are talking about getting a house and starting their life as a twosome, but besides them am I it? I'm not getting anywhere fast but I'm starting my baby steps towards where I want to be. My favorite break at work has gone from solitaire/smoke to real estate research/smoke.
My fear is that my dream, much like everything else I tend to do, is for no one but me. There's always room for visitation, but not so much cohabitation. I don't dream in picket fences, I dream in muscle cars. I'm not as independent as I have been in the past, but there is still a great deal of me that shudders at not being able to do something for myself, by myself. I hate asking for help, I hate not being able to do something. I hate admitting defeat.
I do admit that right now I'm a bit weary of the path ahead of me. I'm noticing things I've pushed to the back burner coming back to the forefront faster than I know how to deal with them. I will in due time, I'll get there.
Ok, I'll shut up now, besides I'm off to Barnes & Noble to try to find a book to help me out with class...yay for spending more $ for school!!
I made up this list for my Web Design/Education Blog, but I want to add more personal touches to it here. I kicked off a lot of the technical crap no one cares about but me and leave you with this.
Teresa's Ongoing To Do List
- Re-write Resume
- Get DisasterDesigns completed and online
- A technical thing, but I'm leaving it because it is a huge goal of mine.
- Research possible college options for future bachelor degree finishing
- I've started this but I want to see what happens with the next thing on the list before I apply anywhere...and take a year off..
- Write/Call MSU regarding what I would need to do to finish my Psych degree
- Take on a few freelance jobs
- Sad thing with that is that I purely don't have the drive/time to really commit to that right this second.
- Work on the Marty/Me book project that is collecting layer upon layer of dust
- Read. Read. Read.
- Soon as I finish the books I already have and haven't read I have a list of books to read...that I'll probably never get to.
- Learn. Learn. Learn.
- I have 3 programming languages I want to fully learn by the fall. Good luck to me there.
- Eat better, move more.
- I'm starting the eating better and I plan to walk for 30mins/1 hour every night hopefully starting tonight after I go get some decent walking/running shoes.
- Start an IRA
- Will be setting that up this week after I get the paperwork through to rollover my State 401K to it (I got it when I was an intern years and years ago and it's just sat ever since, time to do something with it)
- Save $. Save. Save. Save.
- Opened a high interest savings account yesterday I set up to put $25 in each paycheck, it's not much but it's better than nothing.
- Weekend getaway with Josh at some point this summer
- I'm still researching options that can be afforded here, odds are it won't happen
- Write more!!
- Sell things I don’t need.
- Check. Put up the last of my COACH babies I'm willing to part with and shoes I bought but never wore on eBay.
- Start creating a more professional wardrobe. Comfortable but office appropriate.
- This is purely for my own career, because even though I can, wearing jeans is just not giving off the "I'm a responsible adult." vibe I need to give
- Plan out for a better financial year
- I think I'm doing ok here right now. I'm still a paycheck to paycheck girl but our 2% raise just kicked in and I'll be getting a real one soon so hopefully all things will be getting better.
- Relax and enjoy the sunshine.
The other thing is, I feel that I'm making all these plans without taking some other people into full consideration. Purely because I can't. I don't know where everyone else will be when I can actual make these plans a reality. What I'm wondering is, am I the only one?
I know Aaron/Emily are talking about getting a house and starting their life as a twosome, but besides them am I it? I'm not getting anywhere fast but I'm starting my baby steps towards where I want to be. My favorite break at work has gone from solitaire/smoke to real estate research/smoke.
My fear is that my dream, much like everything else I tend to do, is for no one but me. There's always room for visitation, but not so much cohabitation. I don't dream in picket fences, I dream in muscle cars. I'm not as independent as I have been in the past, but there is still a great deal of me that shudders at not being able to do something for myself, by myself. I hate asking for help, I hate not being able to do something. I hate admitting defeat.
I do admit that right now I'm a bit weary of the path ahead of me. I'm noticing things I've pushed to the back burner coming back to the forefront faster than I know how to deal with them. I will in due time, I'll get there.
Ok, I'll shut up now, besides I'm off to Barnes & Noble to try to find a book to help me out with class...yay for spending more $ for school!!