what can i say

[darkangel_hana]

all i can say is wow........my mind has learned so much tonight....my heart has felt so much tonight........my eyes have seen the beauty of my family for once in a long time.there muct be a jesus....why am i still here?if there were no god......i would've been six feet under such a long time ago.....even before my own mother.wow JESUS is so alive....he lives inside of me he dwells with in my heart soul spirit! how could i not love him....for he loves me more than my own mother for in the eyes of children their mother is GOD! like i look back on the days when i was younger and when i didn't know jesus and i think wow.....i was missing out of so much.....tonight i realized how much jesus plays a part in my life.....this is where my light comes from.....he places such a calm peace inside of me......like on the phone with renee.....oh yeah i didn't write i did call her when ...i got home..........yeah i was very hyper and such.......because thats how over whelmed i was......its like i wake in the morning and it doesn't matter what i feel......the first thing i feel is thankful......for i say it again the fact that we have a sun in the sky......what would i do with out sun light......they don't me Hana"flower" for anything....i misss being called Hana:C this beauty that lives inside comes from the angels' cries......the tears fell through the clouds....and filled up my soul with the gift of eternal life.....this life comes each day with the.....laughter of the sun i talk about sun so much because....its that GREAT!it seeps into me......helps my insides grow......when i didn't know jesus i didn't love myself.....i know for all the people who know me...they always hear me putting myself down.......but most of the time i know different......i just say those things at the time because i feel not good......but throught god i feel the beauty of my self and this heart that beats in this chest.....my heart was once broken into a million pieces....more than a million pieces the day my mother's love left this earth...that was the day i hated myself that was the day that love for me no longer lived inside of me.after i got saved ...little by little i asked god to help me love myself....and little by little i began to.yeah see you have to love ur self because if you don't ur self....you will never be able to let a person in fully.i wish i could show all those who don't love them selfs.....love and say just let it in......this life this life goodness this life is far too short when i mean short i mean like hardcore short.........love each other and ur self......ok i'm done yes random this i know...but guess what tabitha rae shes random....and talks fast and skips to different subjects.

all i have to offer this world is me-