Jan 09, 2006 18:13
wow....last night i did so much to my room i took so many memories and put them away wwhy leave them up when all they did to begin with was bring me down...i remember when they brought me light now that is why i had to take it all down it only brought the cry of the night of my heart my soul tear at me just looking at it me i am a flower i need light i crave it behind it all lives a peace sign of colors after all was done i just layed on my bed in tears looking at the wall that once held my hopes and dreams......but at the same time through all the tear came a smile of wow that i actully did for once something for myself it took me like 3 hours to take the stuff off the wall i didn't really wanna take it down but what was there was no longer a living real life to me i am proud of myself b/c of my panda bear she helped me become stronge enough to do it.wow my heart is beating soooooo fast.......i am what and who i am.....my heart feels so free like a rainbow after the rain or a butterfly in summer.
you once said to me "forever" now forever is no longer with in me or you.....we are both just strangers to eachother.but guess what no its too late.....this flower has so much light to give.i am free!i was going to be ur one and only but now.....i thank you for pushing me away....now i can share my light with others that imbrace who i am!