I was told I was beautiful...But what does that mean to you?
*vent*I am soo tired of Victoria (my teacher/boss at cosmo. school) trying to run my life. AND not only my life but my peers. She CAN'T do that! And it pisses me off! *ahh* She wants me to quit my job at Great Clips so I can be at HER salon ALL week. So she can really run me into the ground. I'm seriously burntout and I don't care what it takes, I am finishing that godforsaken school before James comes home. I don't care what it takes. But she also doesn't understand that if it wasn't for my paychecks, I wouldn't be going anywhere. I really feel like a new level of poor. I don't literally understand what it's like to live from paycheck to paycheck because I have a family that forces me to eat constantly (that's another story). But I have a pretty good idea. It sucks...And I know as soon as I graduate from cosmotoligy school then I'll get a bigger better paycheck, and I'll be okay. But for now, I hate her. With an undieing passion...(which is unusual for me)
But my school sometimes makes me feel good. I have an education. One that not many people know how to do. And one that many people ask for assistance in. Not only my friends and my peers, but adults and relatives, and friends parents and their friends. It's nice to know I'm needed sometimes. Cause otherwise I'm oblivious. I cut Sam's hair yesterday, and if you know Sam he's rather hard to please or make him smile. He hugged me because he liked his haircut. THAT is satisfaction garunteed! I also cut Jessica's hair, which wasn't easy. I chopped my index finger (alomst) in half! Hurt like a sonofabitch! But her hair looks great. And I also did 3 facials that women fell asleep to! They were that relaxed. So I can't really say I'm not taking anything from this experience. It'll all be worth it in the end.
I haven't eaten much since Thanksgiving. I refuse to let myself. I found a REALLY cool excersize plan in a magazine. Much better then mine, so I'm switching. And it doesn't require running (in the cold!) it's just toneing(sp?) which is really what I need. So in two weeks I should be looking good! If I stick to my "diet" too. I decided that most of my eating habits aren't to great either. *haha* Sorry that makes me laugh. "Of Course!" you're thinking. "You hardly eat anything!" Which is true. But when I do eat, it's not really the healthiest of everything. So I'm upping my standards for myself. No more binging and purging. I'm through with that.....I hope.....I can do this.
But I don't have much time, I have to get ready for work. I love you guys! You keep me sane (for the most part) *lol* Keep smiling it looks good on you! I'll update again soon.
Tootles,
-Jennie-
"People and things do not upset us, rather we upset ourselves by believing they can upset us." -Albert Ellis