I'm only happy when it rains...
So I know I haven't updated in a while. It's because my computer at home is broken..=\ It won't even turn on any more..So yeah, sad day.
We had a blizzard last night, it wont get over 32 degrees today and this morning when I was cleaning off the snow and ice from my car, it was 6 degrees. 6! I don't think I remember it being this cold in a long time!! I'm totally ready for a nice climate and a beach! =) With sand between my toes *swoon* I can't wait. I'm tired of the cold, dry, icey climate. Sure it's pretty (well in the mountains) but ya know. Cold ALL the time is soo not my thing. Oh and guess what. Last night in the sleeting blizzard, Mish, Sam, Clint, and I went to 2 different pet shops in parker to get frozen pinky's for Mish's snake. The first one didn't have any, but they certainly had puppies!! They had 2 baby basset hounds! (my favorite dog of all time) They were ssoooo cute! I wanted one bad, but again I have no REAL money in my pocket. Clint got a rat (the other day I think, but he brought it with him) and Sam and I looked at fish at the second one while Mish got her pinky's. *hooray for fish* All of us decided that we definentally have to get fish and put these certain ones in a tank under a black light! *o0o pretty bright colors* Since the majority of us were all pretty stoned we were astonished by the fish for a long while~Then we looked outside and it was really crappy, so we went home. I've never been so cold, well at least recently.
I have no idea where my ED is going. Sometimes I eat and sometimes I don't and I think that it's just something I have to live with. That I'll never be able to be "normal" and really enjoy my food when I throw-up half of what I eat anyway. I really want to be healthy and better. But binging and purging and starving is soo crappy. I want to be beautiful. I cry too much over it. As a matter of fact, I cried this morning over something stupid, I had a horrible dream. Like a nightmare and it made me really upset. I had to call Mish to calm me down so I could go to school. At least I didn't bring her down with me. I'm glad I didn't, I really don't like doing that to people, and I really don't mean to. Like when everyone else is happy and I'm not. I think of stuff that makes me happy and soon I'm another happy little girl. I'm sorry if I'm complaining. I just thought you'd want an update.
Recently (well since my weekend in the Springs) I've been keeping in really good contact with James' sister Andrea and Brock (her babies daddy) they really want me to bring some friend's down on a Friday or Sunday night =) I really wanna go too! But I'm always working and no-one else's schedule fits with mine. Well, except Mish's~ So I'm gonna try and go down there and watch the baby a night or something and get my spirits up and get my baby fix! =)
I can't wait to see James again..
But that's all for now, I love you guys!! *huggles and snuggles*
Selflessly Yours,
-Jennie-
You can fall from the sky
You can fall from a tree
But the best way to fall
Is when you fall for me.
We had a blizzard last night, it wont get over 32 degrees today and this morning when I was cleaning off the snow and ice from my car, it was 6 degrees. 6! I don't think I remember it being this cold in a long time!! I'm totally ready for a nice climate and a beach! =) With sand between my toes *swoon* I can't wait. I'm tired of the cold, dry, icey climate. Sure it's pretty (well in the mountains) but ya know. Cold ALL the time is soo not my thing. Oh and guess what. Last night in the sleeting blizzard, Mish, Sam, Clint, and I went to 2 different pet shops in parker to get frozen pinky's for Mish's snake. The first one didn't have any, but they certainly had puppies!! They had 2 baby basset hounds! (my favorite dog of all time) They were ssoooo cute! I wanted one bad, but again I have no REAL money in my pocket. Clint got a rat (the other day I think, but he brought it with him) and Sam and I looked at fish at the second one while Mish got her pinky's. *hooray for fish* All of us decided that we definentally have to get fish and put these certain ones in a tank under a black light! *o0o pretty bright colors* Since the majority of us were all pretty stoned we were astonished by the fish for a long while~Then we looked outside and it was really crappy, so we went home. I've never been so cold, well at least recently.
I have no idea where my ED is going. Sometimes I eat and sometimes I don't and I think that it's just something I have to live with. That I'll never be able to be "normal" and really enjoy my food when I throw-up half of what I eat anyway. I really want to be healthy and better. But binging and purging and starving is soo crappy. I want to be beautiful. I cry too much over it. As a matter of fact, I cried this morning over something stupid, I had a horrible dream. Like a nightmare and it made me really upset. I had to call Mish to calm me down so I could go to school. At least I didn't bring her down with me. I'm glad I didn't, I really don't like doing that to people, and I really don't mean to. Like when everyone else is happy and I'm not. I think of stuff that makes me happy and soon I'm another happy little girl. I'm sorry if I'm complaining. I just thought you'd want an update.
Recently (well since my weekend in the Springs) I've been keeping in really good contact with James' sister Andrea and Brock (her babies daddy) they really want me to bring some friend's down on a Friday or Sunday night =) I really wanna go too! But I'm always working and no-one else's schedule fits with mine. Well, except Mish's~ So I'm gonna try and go down there and watch the baby a night or something and get my spirits up and get my baby fix! =)
I can't wait to see James again..
But that's all for now, I love you guys!! *huggles and snuggles*
Selflessly Yours,
-Jennie-
You can fall from the sky
You can fall from a tree
But the best way to fall
Is when you fall for me.