Severe congestion formula with expectorant my ass!
Still sick. It's going on two weeks now, and this is NOT cool. My only hope is major recovery over winter break when I have a 10 day break from the germy kindergarteners.
I can't login to my favorite procrastinatory site, so I guess I'll update here.
Been a long and busy week, very physically demanding. Friday was such a relief when it came. I had originally planned on going to the hockey game to watch Oswego kick Fredonia's ass, but I had no one to sit with as Dan and all the others that were going were SUNY Fred alums, and that ain't cool. So I actually ended up making plans to go with Armand, but he got sick as well and we both decided, hey maybe sitting in a freezing cold field house is not such a hot idea. So I basically stayed at home all night curled up under a blanket watching TV with Mom. Which actually was fine because that's all I felt like doing.
Yesterday was fun. Got a bit of stuff done in the afternoon, such as most of the Red Creek application. I still have to write my cover letter and print those all out for the various school districts, and I should do that tonight and get it taken care of. But I feel so shitty still.... anyway, also did my taxes and it turns out that I'm going to owe, between Federal and state, about $450. Ouch. But Mom said she and Dad might help me out since they claimed me as a dependent for 2004 and thus stealed all my deductions.
Went to see Oklahoma! at the high school last night with Jay, which was very good and very fun. After the show we went to Friendly's for a late dinner/bedtime snack. Sue called me four times during the show (I had my ringer off) and left me a voicemail each time. Apparently Dave made her a V-day surprise and bought her a bottle of champagne, which she drank almost all of by herself and thus was rather drunk. The first two messages were very long and rambly but the gist was that I should stop over after the show and partake in whatever it was that Dave made for her. The third message was her simply bleating like a goat, and then the last one was her professing her love for me. She was still very drunk when I called her back so I talked to Dave, and told him I'd stop by if they were still up after I dropped Jay back at Mackin, but that he should probably put Sue to bed. Which he did.
OH! Sue also bought her wedding dress yesterday. She took her mom up to David's to show her and I guess her mom must have totally loved it as much as the rest of us because she took it home with her. She said she also found the bridesmaid dress she likes but needs to check and see if it comes in the purple that she wants.
Chris left on Friday. I never even saw him or talked to him to say goodbye. He pretty much demanded that anyone who wanted to see him needed to come to mugnight or they'd just have to wait until he got back in five months. He didn't even respond to my IM when I told him to have a safe drive. Why's he being such a bitch to me lately? I'm so sick of feeling like this friendship of 18 years has turned completely one-sided. When did he become a fair-weather friend? One minute he's ready to beat up every guy who ever made me cry just on principle, and taking me out to lunch and telling me that I'm totally great and one day everything is going to work out the way I want it to and deserve, but then when the shit really hits and I need him to be there for me even if he doesn't know what's going on, he is completely obtuse and doesn't even seem to notice that anything's wrong. It makes me feel so depressed and let down!
Today is Dad's birthday and we're making macaroni and meatballs for dinner. The only thing is that he just started the South Beach Diet and can't eat anything but meat and certain veggies for another week, so he only gets to have salad and meatballs. It's a totally bizarro diet, Mom even bought him talapia (I think that's how you spell it) for him to cook for dinner on Friday.
Thursday after school I dropped off stuff for Dr. Rule to photograph for the article. Our meeting on Tuesday was very productive, there weren't too many changes except that they totally cut out the section on my research study. They felt it wasn't strong enough research (that whole significance thing), but the rest of the article they pretty much left intact. Very cool. They need everything back by tomorrow for immediate publication. Yay!
Christina supposedly gave Mike my cell number on Sunday, but he hasn't called or anything. I don't know if he actually asked or if Christina prompted him, but it's pretty hard to know about someone's sincerity level when there is outside influence.
I've decided a couple things. I should be living in a warmer part of the country and only come back here for Christmas so I can have my holiday snow fix. My hair is in desperate need of help and I should definitely call Linda for an appointment over break. I need to not let things get to me so much. I have to stop trying to think of ways to get revenge without revealing my identity. In fact I need to just stop trying to think of getting revenge on the whole.
And what do you do about songs that hurt due to their associations with once pleasant but now painful things? It happened after Jordan broke up with me - for about a year there were four or five songs I couldn't listen to without either tearing up or internally cringing because they reminded me of him for some reason. Now I've got the same problem. There are a couple songs that just tear me up inside - the worst being "Broken" by Seether and Amy Lee. Whenever it comes on the radio I just want to drive my car over the guardrail. And it sucks because I liked it a lot before all this crap went down and it had any associations whatsoever because it's Amy Lee and I love her and Evanescence. Now it pisses me off so much I actually change the station if I can. So what's the solution? Immerse myself until it stops having painful associations, or avoid it entirely until the day comes when the associations have faded enough for me to listen to it again? And how can I know that the associations will ever fade? What if this song cuts me deep forever because of why those associations are there?
Ugh, I'm still cold and I think I just want to go play some ROTK, but my eyes have also been a little burny today so I don't think exposure to 3D game graphics is the answer here. Could go read more Stone of Tears, but it's very tedious reading. Still not sure how I feel about the series, in the first book I found so many parallels to LOTR it was amazing.
Oh, I also realized that I have certain "book traditions" that I follow every year. I read GWTW every Christmas, I read the Anne of Green Gables series every summer, and at some point I read The Hobbit, Lord of the Rings and The Silmarillion, though the time of year varies based on what else I'm doing. It's interesting how people go back to their favorites.
About five months till the next Harry Potter book is out. Mine's preordered.
1. First name?
Jennifer
2. Were you named after anyone?
No, but the story goes that my mom "stole" my name from my aunt because she liked it
3. Do you wish on stars?
Not anymore
4. When did you last cry?
Um.... Last Sunday afternoon
5. Do you like your handwriting?
I like how it looks when I'm taking my time, but usually it's chicken scratch and even I can't read it. Once Xander told me it looked "Victorian."
6. What's your favorite lunch meat?
Peanut butter. :D
7. What is your birth date?
April 22, 1981
8. What is your most embarrassing CD?
Um.... Boy bands?
9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you?
Probably
10. Are you a daredevil?
Heh. Yeah right.
12. Do looks matter?
Yes they do. Even if we're not talking drop dead gorgeous a person should still look nice, well groomed, put together, etc.
13. How do you release anger?
I don't, that's probably half my problem.
14. Where is your second home?
Sue's house.
15. Do you trust others easily?
Not anymore.
16. What was your favorite toy as a child?
My Little Pony
17. Which class in high school do you think was totally stupid?
Biology. Because it sucks.
18. Do you have a journal?
In real life? Yes. But I haven't written in it since last January, it seems to have become the "this is too big of a thing for me to put on my LJ, even as a Friends Only post."
19. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Does the president have big ears?
20. What are your nicknames?
Jen. That's the only one that's in common usage among many.
21. Would you bungee jump?
Hell no.
22. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
Yes I do.
23. Do you think that you are strong?
In some ways, I guess so.
24. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
Ooooo.... Chocolate. Perhaps peanut butter cup.
25. Shoe size?
7
26. Red or pink?
Red
27. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
Um........ my...... butt?
28. Who do you miss most?
*sigh* Everyone that was ever related to the fun at Scales Hall... Julie, Becky, Chris...
29. Do you want everyone to whom you send this to send it back?
Well, it'd be fun if the other people on my Friends list posted stuff in their LJs.
30. What color pants and shoes are you wearing?
Blue jeans, no shoes, just socks and slippers
31. What are you listening to right now?
The whirrrrrr of my parents' computer fan
32. Last thing you ate?
A mini Snickers bar.
33. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Royal Purple
34. What is the weather like right now?
Sunny, cold
35. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Dave last night when Sue was drunk and incoherent
36. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
If they're taller than me.
37. Do you like the person who sent this to you?
I got this from superguard9, I've never met her in real life even though we went to the same college for a while... from her LJ I bet we'd be friendly-like. :)
38. What is your ethnicity?
I actually can say that this is the correct way to ask this question, as opposed to asking what race you are... Sicilian, Irish, Dutch, German, Welsh, English, French, and Cherokee.
39. Favorite drink?
Coca Cola. Alcoholic? Um.... beer, usually.
40. Favorite sport?
Basketball and hockey.... watching, not playing.
41. Hair color?
Brown
42. Eye color?
Hazel
43. Do you wear contacts?
Yeppers
44. Are you single?
Yes, sometimes wretchedly so. Like on New Year's Eve. And Valentine's Day. Which is tomorrow. Bastards.
45. Favorite food?
Oh, homemade chicken soup. Chocolate. Most desserts, actually.
46. Last movie you watched?
My Big Fat Greek Wedding
47. Favorite day of the year?
CHRISTMAS!!!!
48. Scary movies or happy endings?
Happy endings, even though most of the time they're so cliche it's almost sickeningly predictable
49. Summer or winter?
Summer
50. Hugs or kisses?
Kisses
51. Do you have any favorite rants and, if so, what are they?
Standarized testing and certification requirements. Don't get me started.
52. What is your favorite dessert?
Oh my..... must I pick just one? Cheesecake of any kind, or pumpkin pie. Or devil's food chocolate cake.....
53. Who is most likely to respond?
I have a feeling that nepheles_tears is a safe bet. She likes memes. ;)
54. Who is most likely not to respond?
gobonas99
55. What books are you reading?
Stone of Tears by Terry Goodkind, and my economics textbook *gag*
56. What's on your mouse pad?
The Dell logo
57. What did you watch last night on TV?
Nothing, I wasn't home
58. Favorite smells?
Roses, bread baking, sweet pea, chicken soup
59. Favorite sounds?
Ocean waves, the violin
60. Rolling Stones or Beatles?
The Beatles baby
61. What's the farthest you've been from home?
Great Falls, Montana
62. Do you have a special talent?
I can wiggle my ears
I can't login to my favorite procrastinatory site, so I guess I'll update here.
Been a long and busy week, very physically demanding. Friday was such a relief when it came. I had originally planned on going to the hockey game to watch Oswego kick Fredonia's ass, but I had no one to sit with as Dan and all the others that were going were SUNY Fred alums, and that ain't cool. So I actually ended up making plans to go with Armand, but he got sick as well and we both decided, hey maybe sitting in a freezing cold field house is not such a hot idea. So I basically stayed at home all night curled up under a blanket watching TV with Mom. Which actually was fine because that's all I felt like doing.
Yesterday was fun. Got a bit of stuff done in the afternoon, such as most of the Red Creek application. I still have to write my cover letter and print those all out for the various school districts, and I should do that tonight and get it taken care of. But I feel so shitty still.... anyway, also did my taxes and it turns out that I'm going to owe, between Federal and state, about $450. Ouch. But Mom said she and Dad might help me out since they claimed me as a dependent for 2004 and thus stealed all my deductions.
Went to see Oklahoma! at the high school last night with Jay, which was very good and very fun. After the show we went to Friendly's for a late dinner/bedtime snack. Sue called me four times during the show (I had my ringer off) and left me a voicemail each time. Apparently Dave made her a V-day surprise and bought her a bottle of champagne, which she drank almost all of by herself and thus was rather drunk. The first two messages were very long and rambly but the gist was that I should stop over after the show and partake in whatever it was that Dave made for her. The third message was her simply bleating like a goat, and then the last one was her professing her love for me. She was still very drunk when I called her back so I talked to Dave, and told him I'd stop by if they were still up after I dropped Jay back at Mackin, but that he should probably put Sue to bed. Which he did.
OH! Sue also bought her wedding dress yesterday. She took her mom up to David's to show her and I guess her mom must have totally loved it as much as the rest of us because she took it home with her. She said she also found the bridesmaid dress she likes but needs to check and see if it comes in the purple that she wants.
Chris left on Friday. I never even saw him or talked to him to say goodbye. He pretty much demanded that anyone who wanted to see him needed to come to mugnight or they'd just have to wait until he got back in five months. He didn't even respond to my IM when I told him to have a safe drive. Why's he being such a bitch to me lately? I'm so sick of feeling like this friendship of 18 years has turned completely one-sided. When did he become a fair-weather friend? One minute he's ready to beat up every guy who ever made me cry just on principle, and taking me out to lunch and telling me that I'm totally great and one day everything is going to work out the way I want it to and deserve, but then when the shit really hits and I need him to be there for me even if he doesn't know what's going on, he is completely obtuse and doesn't even seem to notice that anything's wrong. It makes me feel so depressed and let down!
Today is Dad's birthday and we're making macaroni and meatballs for dinner. The only thing is that he just started the South Beach Diet and can't eat anything but meat and certain veggies for another week, so he only gets to have salad and meatballs. It's a totally bizarro diet, Mom even bought him talapia (I think that's how you spell it) for him to cook for dinner on Friday.
Thursday after school I dropped off stuff for Dr. Rule to photograph for the article. Our meeting on Tuesday was very productive, there weren't too many changes except that they totally cut out the section on my research study. They felt it wasn't strong enough research (that whole significance thing), but the rest of the article they pretty much left intact. Very cool. They need everything back by tomorrow for immediate publication. Yay!
Christina supposedly gave Mike my cell number on Sunday, but he hasn't called or anything. I don't know if he actually asked or if Christina prompted him, but it's pretty hard to know about someone's sincerity level when there is outside influence.
I've decided a couple things. I should be living in a warmer part of the country and only come back here for Christmas so I can have my holiday snow fix. My hair is in desperate need of help and I should definitely call Linda for an appointment over break. I need to not let things get to me so much. I have to stop trying to think of ways to get revenge without revealing my identity. In fact I need to just stop trying to think of getting revenge on the whole.
And what do you do about songs that hurt due to their associations with once pleasant but now painful things? It happened after Jordan broke up with me - for about a year there were four or five songs I couldn't listen to without either tearing up or internally cringing because they reminded me of him for some reason. Now I've got the same problem. There are a couple songs that just tear me up inside - the worst being "Broken" by Seether and Amy Lee. Whenever it comes on the radio I just want to drive my car over the guardrail. And it sucks because I liked it a lot before all this crap went down and it had any associations whatsoever because it's Amy Lee and I love her and Evanescence. Now it pisses me off so much I actually change the station if I can. So what's the solution? Immerse myself until it stops having painful associations, or avoid it entirely until the day comes when the associations have faded enough for me to listen to it again? And how can I know that the associations will ever fade? What if this song cuts me deep forever because of why those associations are there?
Ugh, I'm still cold and I think I just want to go play some ROTK, but my eyes have also been a little burny today so I don't think exposure to 3D game graphics is the answer here. Could go read more Stone of Tears, but it's very tedious reading. Still not sure how I feel about the series, in the first book I found so many parallels to LOTR it was amazing.
Oh, I also realized that I have certain "book traditions" that I follow every year. I read GWTW every Christmas, I read the Anne of Green Gables series every summer, and at some point I read The Hobbit, Lord of the Rings and The Silmarillion, though the time of year varies based on what else I'm doing. It's interesting how people go back to their favorites.
About five months till the next Harry Potter book is out. Mine's preordered.
1. First name?
Jennifer
2. Were you named after anyone?
No, but the story goes that my mom "stole" my name from my aunt because she liked it
3. Do you wish on stars?
Not anymore
4. When did you last cry?
Um.... Last Sunday afternoon
5. Do you like your handwriting?
I like how it looks when I'm taking my time, but usually it's chicken scratch and even I can't read it. Once Xander told me it looked "Victorian."
6. What's your favorite lunch meat?
Peanut butter. :D
7. What is your birth date?
April 22, 1981
8. What is your most embarrassing CD?
Um.... Boy bands?
9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you?
Probably
10. Are you a daredevil?
Heh. Yeah right.
12. Do looks matter?
Yes they do. Even if we're not talking drop dead gorgeous a person should still look nice, well groomed, put together, etc.
13. How do you release anger?
I don't, that's probably half my problem.
14. Where is your second home?
Sue's house.
15. Do you trust others easily?
Not anymore.
16. What was your favorite toy as a child?
My Little Pony
17. Which class in high school do you think was totally stupid?
Biology. Because it sucks.
18. Do you have a journal?
In real life? Yes. But I haven't written in it since last January, it seems to have become the "this is too big of a thing for me to put on my LJ, even as a Friends Only post."
19. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Does the president have big ears?
20. What are your nicknames?
Jen. That's the only one that's in common usage among many.
21. Would you bungee jump?
Hell no.
22. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
Yes I do.
23. Do you think that you are strong?
In some ways, I guess so.
24. What is your favorite ice cream flavor?
Ooooo.... Chocolate. Perhaps peanut butter cup.
25. Shoe size?
7
26. Red or pink?
Red
27. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
Um........ my...... butt?
28. Who do you miss most?
*sigh* Everyone that was ever related to the fun at Scales Hall... Julie, Becky, Chris...
29. Do you want everyone to whom you send this to send it back?
Well, it'd be fun if the other people on my Friends list posted stuff in their LJs.
30. What color pants and shoes are you wearing?
Blue jeans, no shoes, just socks and slippers
31. What are you listening to right now?
The whirrrrrr of my parents' computer fan
32. Last thing you ate?
A mini Snickers bar.
33. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Royal Purple
34. What is the weather like right now?
Sunny, cold
35. Last person you talked to on the phone?
Dave last night when Sue was drunk and incoherent
36. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
If they're taller than me.
37. Do you like the person who sent this to you?
I got this from superguard9, I've never met her in real life even though we went to the same college for a while... from her LJ I bet we'd be friendly-like. :)
38. What is your ethnicity?
I actually can say that this is the correct way to ask this question, as opposed to asking what race you are... Sicilian, Irish, Dutch, German, Welsh, English, French, and Cherokee.
39. Favorite drink?
Coca Cola. Alcoholic? Um.... beer, usually.
40. Favorite sport?
Basketball and hockey.... watching, not playing.
41. Hair color?
Brown
42. Eye color?
Hazel
43. Do you wear contacts?
Yeppers
44. Are you single?
Yes, sometimes wretchedly so. Like on New Year's Eve. And Valentine's Day. Which is tomorrow. Bastards.
45. Favorite food?
Oh, homemade chicken soup. Chocolate. Most desserts, actually.
46. Last movie you watched?
My Big Fat Greek Wedding
47. Favorite day of the year?
CHRISTMAS!!!!
48. Scary movies or happy endings?
Happy endings, even though most of the time they're so cliche it's almost sickeningly predictable
49. Summer or winter?
Summer
50. Hugs or kisses?
Kisses
51. Do you have any favorite rants and, if so, what are they?
Standarized testing and certification requirements. Don't get me started.
52. What is your favorite dessert?
Oh my..... must I pick just one? Cheesecake of any kind, or pumpkin pie. Or devil's food chocolate cake.....
53. Who is most likely to respond?
I have a feeling that nepheles_tears is a safe bet. She likes memes. ;)
54. Who is most likely not to respond?
gobonas99
55. What books are you reading?
Stone of Tears by Terry Goodkind, and my economics textbook *gag*
56. What's on your mouse pad?
The Dell logo
57. What did you watch last night on TV?
Nothing, I wasn't home
58. Favorite smells?
Roses, bread baking, sweet pea, chicken soup
59. Favorite sounds?
Ocean waves, the violin
60. Rolling Stones or Beatles?
The Beatles baby
61. What's the farthest you've been from home?
Great Falls, Montana
62. Do you have a special talent?
I can wiggle my ears