Persef Portfolio Entry # 8: Reflecting on my future career
This is actually a re-post of one of my previous entries. I just felt it's a fitting a reflection for this topic.
If there's a thing called mid-life crisis, then I'm having a college-life crisis. During my 1st year, I had everything planned out: what organizations to join, be a consistent dean's lister, graduate in exactly 3 years and 2 terms, get a job after I graduate, do things I've always wanted to do which I couldn't do before due to constraints. I had a vision of what and where I wanted to end up with. But now that I'm in my 3rd year, I had come to realize that I have suddenly lost my grasp on that vision and I find myself stuck in a state of unproductive dormancy. I didn't notice it at first. It was just these past few weeks that I started to feel like I've wasted a lot of time not really doing anything other than going to school and attending my classes with no extra-curricular activities whatsoever.
I'm pondering on what happened along the way and maybe, just maybe, I got intimidated by the course that I took halfway through. Right now, I'm not really sure how to get out of this situation. But I told myself that the results of my performance this term will be the deciding factor. So, I'll let the term finish (which is about one month away) and then I'll accept whichever way I have to continue on. I'll just have to make the best out of it. So God help me.
PS: Yeah, I know I sound really pathetic. Forgive me.
PPS: Screw whatever my relatives would say if ever I am forced to shift course.
If there's a thing called mid-life crisis, then I'm having a college-life crisis. During my 1st year, I had everything planned out: what organizations to join, be a consistent dean's lister, graduate in exactly 3 years and 2 terms, get a job after I graduate, do things I've always wanted to do which I couldn't do before due to constraints. I had a vision of what and where I wanted to end up with. But now that I'm in my 3rd year, I had come to realize that I have suddenly lost my grasp on that vision and I find myself stuck in a state of unproductive dormancy. I didn't notice it at first. It was just these past few weeks that I started to feel like I've wasted a lot of time not really doing anything other than going to school and attending my classes with no extra-curricular activities whatsoever.
I'm pondering on what happened along the way and maybe, just maybe, I got intimidated by the course that I took halfway through. Right now, I'm not really sure how to get out of this situation. But I told myself that the results of my performance this term will be the deciding factor. So, I'll let the term finish (which is about one month away) and then I'll accept whichever way I have to continue on. I'll just have to make the best out of it. So God help me.
PS: Yeah, I know I sound really pathetic. Forgive me.
PPS: Screw whatever my relatives would say if ever I am forced to shift course.