My heart bleeds no more. now, it’s been turned to stone...
Yes that is true, my heart is stone. I am single, that's it. I can't take it anymore.
"I’ve broken both my legs falling
for you. Drag me on the ground. Powerless I stand, tarnished blade,
cutting through, pushed into my vein. Blood still stains my hands.
Sharpening my sense of pain outside, my heart bleeds no more.
Killing everything off inside. Make sense of everything you tried to
hide, hide from me. My heart bleeds no more; now, it’s been turned
to stone. My stomach feels sore from cutting up. I ruined all my
sanctity for you. Smash me on the ground. I wanted to, convince
myself there’s nothing else to do. I wanted to. Provide you with proof
of what you put me through. I wanted to. Pretend that I was you."
That is basically how i feel and that song just says it all. I can't take the lying anymore, no matter how we weren't really together or we were, it still hurt.The past few months have been the worst of my life. And when I really needed someone, it seemed like you were there for me but you really werent. So yea, that is all done.
I might drive to Cape May tommorow-- it's far but Joe is there. Joe is awesome, I havent seen him in like a year. They are having a party so that will be fun if i go. Plus Joe wants me to come down for a week after graduation... that would be cool cause his house is like 5 minutes from the beach. if you dont know about joe he is my friend who i met on vacation over the summer and now we are still friends and good stuff like that.
I'm really depressed right now though and my parents being assholes doesnt help a bit. I've just been sitting around doing nothing and sulking/crying. Always fun right? yes. Being depressed is fun mmhmm. Well I'm not going to prom and my friends are mad at me for that, i want to go but no i really dont. I'm not the dance type and being that Im lazy i still dont have a job I have no money, no dress and no DATE. So there is no point at all.
This is getting long and too informative. That's all
*Carly*
"I’ve broken both my legs falling
for you. Drag me on the ground. Powerless I stand, tarnished blade,
cutting through, pushed into my vein. Blood still stains my hands.
Sharpening my sense of pain outside, my heart bleeds no more.
Killing everything off inside. Make sense of everything you tried to
hide, hide from me. My heart bleeds no more; now, it’s been turned
to stone. My stomach feels sore from cutting up. I ruined all my
sanctity for you. Smash me on the ground. I wanted to, convince
myself there’s nothing else to do. I wanted to. Provide you with proof
of what you put me through. I wanted to. Pretend that I was you."
That is basically how i feel and that song just says it all. I can't take the lying anymore, no matter how we weren't really together or we were, it still hurt.The past few months have been the worst of my life. And when I really needed someone, it seemed like you were there for me but you really werent. So yea, that is all done.
I might drive to Cape May tommorow-- it's far but Joe is there. Joe is awesome, I havent seen him in like a year. They are having a party so that will be fun if i go. Plus Joe wants me to come down for a week after graduation... that would be cool cause his house is like 5 minutes from the beach. if you dont know about joe he is my friend who i met on vacation over the summer and now we are still friends and good stuff like that.
I'm really depressed right now though and my parents being assholes doesnt help a bit. I've just been sitting around doing nothing and sulking/crying. Always fun right? yes. Being depressed is fun mmhmm. Well I'm not going to prom and my friends are mad at me for that, i want to go but no i really dont. I'm not the dance type and being that Im lazy i still dont have a job I have no money, no dress and no DATE. So there is no point at all.
This is getting long and too informative. That's all
*Carly*