And I give myself three days to feel better or else I swear I'll drive right off a fucking cliff...
Today was well, a 'forget about everything and pretend to be happy' day, which was fine by me. My sister came home so I complained to her for awhile and that made me feel slightly better and i miss talking to her so it was good to see her. I just cant wait to not have to go to high school anymore because it is way too early and I am just done with that place.
I STILL need a job, even though it's been less than a week I can't sit around anymore. I've gone from being super busy and not knowing what to do first, to having absolutely NOTHING to do. I really hate Ian and I just wish that he would stop calling no matter how much it hurts to ignore his calls I can ignore most of them. Just as long as I don't have to see him I will be ok, i swear.
I just don't understand what is so bad about just being with me, I'm not a horrible person or anything like that, I'm just me and it bothers me that he says 'i love you' and still can go right ahead and crush me. I don't want to rant about him though because it will just make me sadder and want to go back to him so I will stop.
I have some people that I have to call and catch up with anyway so I will get to that, tommorow maybe. I don't know, I will think about it tommorow, day by day I wil figure this out. I can't wait to move out of my house and meet some 'different' people.
Alright I am all finished for tonight.. -*Carly*-
PS (Bright Eyes is good to listen to when you are in my state)
I STILL need a job, even though it's been less than a week I can't sit around anymore. I've gone from being super busy and not knowing what to do first, to having absolutely NOTHING to do. I really hate Ian and I just wish that he would stop calling no matter how much it hurts to ignore his calls I can ignore most of them. Just as long as I don't have to see him I will be ok, i swear.
I just don't understand what is so bad about just being with me, I'm not a horrible person or anything like that, I'm just me and it bothers me that he says 'i love you' and still can go right ahead and crush me. I don't want to rant about him though because it will just make me sadder and want to go back to him so I will stop.
I have some people that I have to call and catch up with anyway so I will get to that, tommorow maybe. I don't know, I will think about it tommorow, day by day I wil figure this out. I can't wait to move out of my house and meet some 'different' people.
Alright I am all finished for tonight.. -*Carly*-
PS (Bright Eyes is good to listen to when you are in my state)