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[dark_witness]

i'm not sure what this feeling is
            but i'm sure that i don't like it
    i'm trying hard to push away
      but i don't think i can fight it

my naivety comes back to me,
it reminds me of my youth
    and the tears spilling down my cheeks
                    remind me of the truth

the truth is -- i love you
              & probably always will
                              but i'm scared-
  of you, of me, of us..
          i'm scared of forever,
                    but terrified of never
    again being your lover.

i know i cant have the best of both worlds
              but damnit, i want to!
    ...and i dont know what to do....

9-13-06