Mar 04, 2004 14:06
it seems as tho i slipped off the edge of the world into nothing. lost contact with most of my friends... lost hope in my life... depression takes over soon. kat has become unstable... god how i love her and treasure the moments we spend together but it scares me soo much how she treats herself and how she can say some of the things she does. i want to be with her till the end of time... but i wonder if she feels the same. she says she does... she doesnt want to talk to me... shes mad because i said "ok all the rules i set, the no drugs, no cutting, no drinking, fuck em. you do what you want and be the person you want to be but if the person you become isnt who i want to spend my life with, dont expect me to stick around." honesty is a bitch... well atleast i let out how i feel. and its the truth. why would i torture her with my company? i love her to death... god i hope she doenst leave me...