fuuuck
wtf is going on GAAHHHH!!!! this is driving me insane! its like i cant say anything right to her.. i mean i try but she turns my words around and makes me seem like an ass hole. then she always gets pissed off at me then when i get pissed off she freaks out on me. i told her i loved her and she screamed bullshit and hung up the phone... heh... wtf, itslike all she does in her LJ is complain about me and talk about how fucked up i am and how big of an asshole i am. why the fuck is she even with me if im apparently treating her soo shitty? then she doubted my love for her... she said she didnt know if i truely loved her!! now thats bullshit. if i dodnt love her, i would have broken up the first time she lied tome about being clean, i wouldnt have delt with all the arguments, i would ride the fuckin bus for 3 hours just to go see her for a few minutes, and i wouldnt try soo hard to make us work... its like nomatter how hard i try, its never good enough. if i tell her not to do somthing she will do it just to spite me... mature...
all i did today was worry and prepare for whatever fight would insue(sp?) and i went to the mall and met amanda and matt there. we met a guy jeremy and then we just walked around and we went to the boardwalk and i played DDR and i found some kids wallet. inside was 50 bucks and his id. being the boy scout that i am, i promptly took the money and ditched the wallet. im such a fuckin asshole hehehehe. then i went to dannys work and got somthin to eat with amanda. we went outside and danny asked me to call girls that were single to go to a party. so i called this girl sarah first(dannys friend) and then i called steph(kats friend). i called kat next but she was fuckin furious that i didnt call her first. she wouldnt even give me a chance to explain before she hung up. amanda had to call her and explain it to her. then she clmed down and well yeah. i went to the party, which was pretty much a cock fest cuz no girls showed up. i rolled a cig from butts and a page out of the bible and smoked it. it was the nastiest smoke in the world.i called kat and told her to go to sleep and that i love her. i just left a voice mail so when she wakes up she can wake up to somthing happy. i love her so much and shes worth everything to me. but me and her need to sit down and talk, otherwise we will be miserable. well im off to sleep. love you kids, i love you kitten. good night my love
all i did today was worry and prepare for whatever fight would insue(sp?) and i went to the mall and met amanda and matt there. we met a guy jeremy and then we just walked around and we went to the boardwalk and i played DDR and i found some kids wallet. inside was 50 bucks and his id. being the boy scout that i am, i promptly took the money and ditched the wallet. im such a fuckin asshole hehehehe. then i went to dannys work and got somthin to eat with amanda. we went outside and danny asked me to call girls that were single to go to a party. so i called this girl sarah first(dannys friend) and then i called steph(kats friend). i called kat next but she was fuckin furious that i didnt call her first. she wouldnt even give me a chance to explain before she hung up. amanda had to call her and explain it to her. then she clmed down and well yeah. i went to the party, which was pretty much a cock fest cuz no girls showed up. i rolled a cig from butts and a page out of the bible and smoked it. it was the nastiest smoke in the world.i called kat and told her to go to sleep and that i love her. i just left a voice mail so when she wakes up she can wake up to somthing happy. i love her so much and shes worth everything to me. but me and her need to sit down and talk, otherwise we will be miserable. well im off to sleep. love you kids, i love you kitten. good night my love