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this is rediculas. kat says all these things to me of how we are gonna be together forever and all these about ouur future and how we will always be happy... then she breaks up with me yesterday... i lost everything i had... now her. then about an eternity later we get back together and i thought everything was worked out just fine... wrong. she started doin tweak again and she still likes danny alot. danny for all of those who dont know is my friend. yeah well i have no problem with him and now i dont know whats going on with me and kat cuz we arew just texting back and fourth. goddammit... the sad thing is tho if we break up again thats it... im not goin back because how many times does a girl hafta break up with a guy for him o get the point. there is no more chances. i feel so shitty right now you people have no fuckin idea. i have nothing in my life right now... except matt... hes a good kid and i love him to death. this just isnt how i expected my love for her to be thrown away. its like she doesnt understand... i threw caution to the wind yesterday and took 16 ccc's, drank, and smoked weed. i dont care anymore, what have i got now? nothing. ive got shit right now.... fuck. this is fuckin pitiful. i dont want to lose her