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Went to a japanese class of sorts tonight. The teacher definetly isn't a teacher by trade, but she seemed good to me. She seemed really shy or something, atleast at first. Didn't learn anything new tonight though..probably won't at all? It was kinda neat though, because she is from Tokyo, and her friend who she brought along is from Kyoko. So they have different dilects. She would say a word, then get her friend to say it so we can hear the difference. I could tell the difference slightly. It was neat though...Man, how I wish someone around here would teach it long enough for me to be able to actually SPEAK to japanese people....
Anyway, this morning I dropped off a resume at Critters pet store. I totally didn't get it though. I'm really sad about it, even though I currently have a full time job. Firstly, they gave me a small math test. One, I suck at math, and two, I'm even worse if it's under pressure. Then she asks what hours I can work. I said part time. She said why,are you in school? I said no, I had another job, but she is really flexable for moving shifts, plus I mightnot have a job in a few weeks. I MENT to say because the place is closing, but seeing I'm stupid, I didn't, therefore she probably thinks I'm getting fired. -sigh- THEN, she asks if I have any fears, so I said spiders. She smiled and asked how bad. so...yeah. So much went wrong with it, that I know I won't get it. I had that feeling that you know you didn't do good. So upsetting!! I really wanted it so I could learn more about animals :( I'm doomed to never work with pets -sigh- She neveer said "I'll get back to you"or anything either..so another good sign there. I hope she'll atleast give me an interview..
I don't know why, but certain people seem to make me feel really jealous. I have no idea why, and it pisses me off. I HATE jealousy, and I hate the feeling. I've had a lot of kids jealous of me most of my childhood, and it's the worst. I lost so many friends cause of it. So why would I feel it for no reason? The person might be well liked, or get attention or..I have no idea. It doesn't seem like enough to be jealous over. I make myself sick to be truthful. There is absolutely no need for that emotion. At all. So, knowing it's wrong to feel this way, why do I continue to feel it? Truthfully, I am no worse off than any people I've felt jealous of. Maybe even better off. So WHY?! urg. tottallykillme
Anyway, this morning I dropped off a resume at Critters pet store. I totally didn't get it though. I'm really sad about it, even though I currently have a full time job. Firstly, they gave me a small math test. One, I suck at math, and two, I'm even worse if it's under pressure. Then she asks what hours I can work. I said part time. She said why,are you in school? I said no, I had another job, but she is really flexable for moving shifts, plus I mightnot have a job in a few weeks. I MENT to say because the place is closing, but seeing I'm stupid, I didn't, therefore she probably thinks I'm getting fired. -sigh- THEN, she asks if I have any fears, so I said spiders. She smiled and asked how bad. so...yeah. So much went wrong with it, that I know I won't get it. I had that feeling that you know you didn't do good. So upsetting!! I really wanted it so I could learn more about animals :( I'm doomed to never work with pets -sigh- She neveer said "I'll get back to you"or anything either..so another good sign there. I hope she'll atleast give me an interview..
I don't know why, but certain people seem to make me feel really jealous. I have no idea why, and it pisses me off. I HATE jealousy, and I hate the feeling. I've had a lot of kids jealous of me most of my childhood, and it's the worst. I lost so many friends cause of it. So why would I feel it for no reason? The person might be well liked, or get attention or..I have no idea. It doesn't seem like enough to be jealous over. I make myself sick to be truthful. There is absolutely no need for that emotion. At all. So, knowing it's wrong to feel this way, why do I continue to feel it? Truthfully, I am no worse off than any people I've felt jealous of. Maybe even better off. So WHY?! urg. tottallykillme