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My mother his dieing. She has a cancer with metastase spreading everywhere. She his adamant on her desire to see me in person one last time, so I will have to go to Canada has soon has possible, but the bureaucraty to renew my passport are hells and taking age. I doubt she'll live long enough, the doctors where already certain that she would die
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But she's very weak, she barely talk on the phone for a minute. My father want to go visit her too again. (they are divorced) He want to try and make her relax about the whole death thing, trying to make her believe in an afterworld etc, since she doesn't believe in any and his so adamant to live, but I don't think he will be able to, because I doubt he would manage to convince me either.
It's an interesting fact that I seem to deal more easily with my mother dying that us being crooked. I think that I am much better at dealing with sadness than with anger, but I guess sadness will catch on one way or another eventually. Anyway, all my papers have been sent for renewing my passports and should allow me to travel there somewhere between the 3 and the 12 september.
Don't worry too much about your family, because even if you where there, you couldn't prevent anything that have to happen. Had I been in canada, my mother would still have fallen sick and there would be no difference exept that I would be in a worst state, because I know deep inside that I am where I should be, that my place his here.
I will not stay long in Canada if I can help it, we don't have the money (nor the vacation) for Arcana to come too, and she need me here.
I think the one it will be the worst for his my younger brother. He still live with her and he doesn't have many person in his life. My father want to try and help him deal with it as well but I don't think my brother (half brother mother side) will accept his help.
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