Not coping
The only thing I am at all happy with is that mum is ok right now. However that will change. Twice now, very suddenly, she got bad and went into hospital and we thought we might lose her, actually we did nearly lose her both times. And each time she goes in to hospital, the chances that she will ever come home again get less and less.
Since we found out that she has Mesothelioma, Mum has been tidying up her life.
Continued...
She arranged the funds for her funeral, so that we would not be burdened with it after she dies. She had another christmas with the grandlkids (And looks like she will make this christmas too).
But over time she has gotten weaker, more frail, just unable to do the things that she used to. She sleeps a lot. She will fall asleep in her chair in the lounge room a lot more. And even when she is tired she often doesnt have the energy to get up and walk to her room to go to bed.
I guess, basically, I am not happy with my life. No easy way of changing it. Dont think that it can get any better. Only see it getting worse in the future too.
*EDIT 09 AUG 2006*
Well, she did die of the mesothelioma in July, but it all went very peacefully and I couldn't have asked for it to go any better. Strangely, now I am coping. Maybe all that made me stronger.
Since we found out that she has Mesothelioma, Mum has been tidying up her life.
Continued...
She arranged the funds for her funeral, so that we would not be burdened with it after she dies. She had another christmas with the grandlkids (And looks like she will make this christmas too).
But over time she has gotten weaker, more frail, just unable to do the things that she used to. She sleeps a lot. She will fall asleep in her chair in the lounge room a lot more. And even when she is tired she often doesnt have the energy to get up and walk to her room to go to bed.
I guess, basically, I am not happy with my life. No easy way of changing it. Dont think that it can get any better. Only see it getting worse in the future too.
*EDIT 09 AUG 2006*
Well, she did die of the mesothelioma in July, but it all went very peacefully and I couldn't have asked for it to go any better. Strangely, now I am coping. Maybe all that made me stronger.