I also got a tumblr page (link on the side) so many of the gifs used here have been reblogged there (since I have no clue as to how to make a gif).
Alright so here is a jotted recap of the episode with my initial thoughts included throughout and after the episode. I do it this way because my memory sucks when it comes to recalling things that don't revolve around my OTP for the series.
SEASON 14
**MAJOR SPOILER ALERT**
"Supernatural" - ep. 14x18 ("Absence") [
CW Promo]
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My Tumblr Page for 14x18] [Producer's Preview]
Synopsis: THE STATE OF BEING AWAY - Sam (Jared Padalecki) and Dean (Jensen Ackles) continue to worry about the condition of Jack’s (Alexander Calvert) soul.
I'm very worried for Jack right now.
THEN
- Jack kills Michael
- Jack gets his powers back
- Jack heals Sam
- Jack kills Felix the snake
- Castiel worries about Jack's soul
- Nick escapes police custody
- Nick tries to bring Lucifer back
- Jack feels Nick's attempts
- Jack uses his powers to kill Nick
- Jack saves the Winchesters
- Jack returns to Mary
- Mary is concerned
- Jack lashes out with glowing eyes
NOW
Bunker
- Sam and Dean return home
- They call out to Mary and Jack
- No answer
- Dean has a drink
- Sam returns with no trace of them
- Dean thinks they are on a trip to town
- Dean toasts to Sam's survival
- "Here's to another Sam winchester revival." -Dean
- Dean talks about Jack saving their butts
- Dean tries to call Mary
- Mary's phone in the Bunker rings
- Sam and Dean grow worried
- Sam tries to phone Jack
Woods
- Jack stares ahead in the woods
- Jack's phone continues to ring
TITLE CARD
Bunker
- Sam and Dean call everyone for news
- Sam has a possible lead with Rowena
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Webclip No. 1 starts
- Dean gets a call from Castiel
- Castiel reacts to the news about Nick's plans for Lucifer
- Castiel grows worried about Mary being alone with Jack
- Dean hears the hesitance
- Castiel admits that Jack killed Felix
- "I don't think Jack is well, Dean." -Castiel
- Dean hangs up
- Sam has an idea to locate Jack
- Sam uses Jack's phone to locate his GPS
- Jack's GPS is seen all over the world
- "He's flying." -Sam
- "What the hell is he doing?" -Dean
Woods
- Jack collapses on the ground by the Cabin
- Jack sees his battery is low on the phone
- Jack sees all the missed calls
- Jack experiences flashbacks of Mary and their time together
- Jack sees his warning to Mary
- Someone appears behind Jack on the porch
- Jack is shocked to recognize Nick
- Nick's eyes flash for Lucifer
- Jack is doubtful
- Lucifer admits that he is Jack's subconscious
- "I'm not Nick, I'm not Lucifer. I'm you." -Mind-Lucifer
- "You killed Mary Winchester. You cannot come back from that." -Mind-Lucifer
- Jack tries to defend himself
- "It was an accident." -Jack
- "Alright, just tell them that." -Mind-Lucifer
- Jack blasts Mind-Lucifer away
Road
- Dean drives in a hurry
- Sam reports that Castiel will meet them there
- Sam tries to rationalize the situation
- Dean wants to find everyone first
- Sam sees that Jack's phone has died...no siginal
- Dean pulls up to the cabin from the last known location
- Sam searches inside the cabin
- Sam finds Nick's dead body covered in severe burns
- Sam rushes to call out to Dean
- Dean checks outside the cabin
- Dean finds tracks that lead to a burnt out part of the ground
- Sam finds Dean searching over the burnt ground
COMMERICAL
Road
- Castiel waits in the car
- Castiel remembers a vampire hunt with Mary
- Mary had enough ammo for two vampires and was creative for the third
- Mary wanted to eat before patching herself up
- Castiel offers to heal Mary
- Mary declines since she's still adjusting
- "Are you still afraid of me?" -Castiel
- "Maybe a little." -Mary
- Mary hadn't been back for long
- "It's all still pretty new still." -Mary
- Castiel tells Mary about how much the brothers missed her
- Castiel believes that with Mary back, the brothers don't have to feel so alone anymore
- "Castiel, they were never alone." -Mary
- Castiel heads inside
Cabin
- Sam covers Nick's body
- Sam wonders if Jack caused the blast site
- Dean doesn't know but he thinks Nick could be the cause
- Castiel interrupts
- Sam brings up the angelic blast site outside
- No sign of Mary or Jack
- Dean will cut Castiel off if Mary is dead because of Jack
- Castiel tries to defend his silence
- Castiel brings up his faith with Jack
- Castiel's doubt happened when he saw Felix was sacrificed
- "What he did wasn't bad, it was in the absence of good." -Castiel
- Castiel wishes he could have spoken to Jack when Felix was destroyed
- Sam gets a call from Rowena
- Rowena has an unstable reading about Jack
- Sam wonders about Mary
- Rowena hesitates
- Dean shouts for an answer
- Rowena doesn't know what happened but she can't locate Mary
- "Mary Winchester is no longer on this Earth." -Rowena
- Everyone stays silent
- Dean throws and destroys furniture
- Sam flinches
- Rowena can hear this
- Sam wonders what they do next
- "We fight to bring them back." -Dean
- "How? Billie?" -Sam
- "Rowena." -Dean
- Dean wants Rowena to use the Book of the Damned to bring Mary back (like Rowena did for herself)
- Castiel brings up Mary's absence
- Dean sends Castiel to Heaven to find Mary
- "Go to Heaven and find her!" -Dean
- Dean tells Sam to let Rowena know they are coming
Elsewhere
- Rowena writes something down
- A knock is heard
- Rowena is expecting someone
- *It's not the Winchesters*
- Rowena opens the door to see Jack waiting for her
COMMERICAL
Elsewhere (Hotel Room)
- Rowena tries to figure out Jack's plan while keeping him calm (and stalling some time)
- "Are you well?" -Rowena
- Jack wants Rowena's help to resurrect Mary
- "I need help. I need magic." -Jack
- "Why?" -Rowena
- "I killed Mary." -Jack
- Rowena is shocked
- "It was an accident, I didn't mean to." -Jack
- Jack explains that he wanted silence for a second but then she was gone
- Jack only thought of it for a moment but it was enough for Mary to be gone
- Jack hopes that Rowena can help him
- Rowena brings up her magic being failsafes set in place beforehand
- "They have to be prepared in advanced." -Rowena
- Jack brings up the Book of the Damned
- Rowena explains a similar spell
- Rowena mentions the ingredients being in the bunker
- Massive knocks occur outside
- Jack realizes that Rowena has been stalling him
- "Just talk to them Jack, they are your kin." -Rowena
- Jack escapes with Rowena
- Sam kicks down the door to find it empty
Heaven's Gate
- Castiel finds the park empty
- Castiel tries to reach out to Heaven
Bunker
- Jack lands with Rowena
- Rowena is outraged
- Jack moves and remembers Mary's lessons
- Mary teaches Jack how to handle a knife
- Knife makes marks in the floor
- "When we get Dean back, he's gonna kill me for this." -Jack
- Mary moves the table over the floor damage
- "Over what?" -Mary
- Jack smiles
- Sam walks in and talks with Mary
- Sam has been too focused on getting Dean back
- Mary understands
- Mary brings up the shared struggles of being a parent
- "Parenting is always a struggle." -Mary
- Mary brings up her own experience and pride for her sons
- "Kids...they'll always surprise you." -Mary
- Mary packs up and smiles at Sam
- Sam finishes the memory
Rowena's Hotel Room
- Dean rants to Sam about Jack using his powers to evade them
- Dean blames Castiel for his silence
- Sam defends Castiel
- Sam reminds Dean that they always knew that Jack was dangerous
- Sam reminds Dean that he was cautious from the start
- "You didn't know." -Dean
- Sam points that fact out to Dean again
- "He became our family." -Sam
- Sam realizes his mistake of 'checking out' after Maggie and the Hunters died
- Sam left Jack with Castiel
- Dean realizes he did the same thing (leaving Jack with Donatello and taking his word for it)
- "I think it was a warning and I just didn't see it." -Dean
Bunker
- Rowena takes her time to gather her ingredients
- Jack grows impatient
- Rowena explains to Jack that she's not resisting him because he wants what the Winchesters want
- Rowena admits that she wants to help out
- Mind-Lucifer appears to Jack again
- Rowena notices Jack talking to himself
- Mind-Lucifer goads Jack about not having a soul
- Rowena continues the spell
- Jack tries to get Mind-Lucifer to shut up
- Mind-Lucifer tells Jack that his plan won't stop the guilt
- Jack checks on Rowena
- Rowena admits that she's done but she needs Mary's body
Heaven's Gate
- Castiel calls out to speak with Naomi
- Duma appears instead
- Castiel wants Mary
- Duma reveals that Mary is in a special Heaven and that she is in peace (died without pain)
- "Mary Winchester is complete." -Duma
- Castiel doesn't want to accept that
Cabin
- Jack takes Rowena to the angelic blast spot
- Rowena insists that she needs Mary's body for the spell
- Jack will do anything to fix his mistake
- Rowena warns Jack of the consequences
- Jack pushes Rowena back with magic
- Rowena ends up back at her place
- Rowena rushes to her phone
- Rowena calls Sam and Dean to warn them about Jack's plan
- Necromancy is a delicate art." -Rowena
- Rowena fears what Jack could resurrect
Cabin
- Jack completes the spell
- Pink void opens in the sky
COMMERICAL
Cabin
- Sam and Dean return to the cabin
- Jack continues the spell
- Jack sees the Impala and uses his powers to stop the car
- Jack continues the spell
- The Pink void grows
- Dean hears Jack chanting
- Sam and Dean rush to Jack
- Pink lightning hits the angelic blast site
- Pink Void disappears
- Sam calls out to Jack
- Jack sadly looks to them
- "It didn't work." -Jack
- Jack disappears
- Dean rushes to Mary's body
- Sam joins them
- Dean remembers a drive home with Mary asleep beside him
- Dean smiles
COMMERICAL
Warehouse
- Jack sits alone
- Mind-Lucifer joins Jack
- "It's worse, trying and failing. There's no going back, you do realize that right?" -Mind-Lucifer
- "They're never gonna trust you again." -Mind-Lucifer
- Mind-Lucifer reveals that if the Winchesters can't trust Jack then that means he could never trust them
- Jack looks away
Bunker
- Sam looks through the old family photos
- Castiel returns to join Sam
- "She's in Heaven. And she's at peace." -Castiel
- "So Naomi told you?" -Sam
- "Duma actually." -Castiel
- Dean casts doubt about Duma's word
- Castiel admits that he saw Mary at peace in her Heaven
- Mary has reunited with John
- Sam talked to Rowena bout Jack's spell
- Jack brought back a replicated shell that was incapable of holding life
- "So what are we supposed to do now?"
- "What we always do." -Dean
Outside
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- Mary gets a Hunter's Funeral
- Angelic Blast Site is shown
- Sam holds out a photo of Sam
- Flashes of Mary over the years
- Sam tosses the photo into the pyre
- Castiel moves to approach the pyre but Sam holds him back
- Dean stands closest to the pyre
Bunker
- Mary's initials were carved into the table beside Sam and Dean's initials
- John should have done it too when he was there in 14x13
CREDITS
14x19 Promo = AU Bobby returns = Jack grows more powerful = Jack uses his powers at church groups = Sam and Dean talk about killing Jack (but they both need to agree to it)
For more of my thoughts taken directly after watching the episode, check out my youtube video for it here
==> [
My After Show Video for 14x18]
See you next month!