Hey -
Well I've updated again - yay.
Now - I was really, really down today, there are two reasons I've been really down recently (apart from the excessive amount of school and musical work I've got to do), the things that have been pushing me off the edge is Cera and Kate. Kate because of last night - but apparently that wasn't her... so I'll ignore it and just ignore Chloe instead :) and Cera because she hasn't been talking to me. But I spoke to Nina tonight at townhouse (which, I might add, was an awesome night), she hasn't been talking to me because I haven't been talking to her? I cheered up a lot today because I managed to share one whole word with her, which was "whatever" when she was talking to Bruno about the Punk/Rock karaoke night at Townhouse tonight - turns out I was right all along and it's actually "Rock Karaoke" :P - but yea... she didn't talk to me for a few days - then I apolligised - then I still got no reply - so I was feeling a bit shitty, then Bruno told me to give her "a lot" of space... his words exactly. So I have... but apparently she must have spoken to Nina about the fact that we didn't talk at the train station this morning... because else Nina wouldn't have known about it. I thought everytime she walked past me in the common room and didn't talk to me I thought she was ignoring me - maybe she was... maybe she wasn't - but... I would have spoken to her at the station today - I saw her standing up and then got butterfly's in my stomach because I thought "oh god, I haven't spoken to her for ages, we won't talk much... meh" - then I walked down the stairs, and she was sitting on them then... then I just stood there waiting for the train (yes... I managed to be JUST on time for the 8:32 - you can tell just how much I can actually be bothered at the moment)... then the train came, and I thought I should talk to her but she disappeared - then Jimmy said 'Hi' after we got off - and I walked up with him, even if we didn't actually say a word... so I just hope Nina was ... right and that me and Cera have kind of been immature and she DOES actually want to speak to me (at least a bit is good). Kate; it's good that it was Chloe in stead... seeing as everything got on top of me today and during music I couldn't be fucked to be 'anywhere' and wanted to die... really. But all you have to think, when you think that is 'oh well... however much it doesn't feel like it now, things will get better'.
Went out with Ben tonight - can't remember TOO much - we met some people... ooh Woody, Joe and Nick. Mainly Woody. Met Tally and Beej. I was so drunk I spat beer in Ben's face... which he wasn't too happy about - so I let him spit it in my face - now my hair is sticky... at least Tally had a laugh. lol. Nina - told me what I've just said - and I was talking to her about Kabe... (I'm spelling it like that even if it's not meant to be). I shoud text her actually... and no, tally... it's "Nina", not .... that random name which I forgot. Friday's have suddenly become a lot more interesting - they began to become boring - but it's Fridays - Saturday I'm going to the bench again I think... then Sunday will be sober - except I might be meeting someone. I don't know - anyway....
Ben is drunk and I said he could sleep over - so I'd better make sure he's alive - and go to bed myself. I can't believe he puked in someone's drive-way when Chris (D'Agorn) dropped Tally off. Then I managed to give him directions to my house. :)
I REALLY hope James passed his test today. I was going to text him at 9... but I forgot. I'll text him tomorrow. Not long until I've finished all my lessons - hopefully I can drive then.
Good night.
Now - I was really, really down today, there are two reasons I've been really down recently (apart from the excessive amount of school and musical work I've got to do), the things that have been pushing me off the edge is Cera and Kate. Kate because of last night - but apparently that wasn't her... so I'll ignore it and just ignore Chloe instead :) and Cera because she hasn't been talking to me. But I spoke to Nina tonight at townhouse (which, I might add, was an awesome night), she hasn't been talking to me because I haven't been talking to her? I cheered up a lot today because I managed to share one whole word with her, which was "whatever" when she was talking to Bruno about the Punk/Rock karaoke night at Townhouse tonight - turns out I was right all along and it's actually "Rock Karaoke" :P - but yea... she didn't talk to me for a few days - then I apolligised - then I still got no reply - so I was feeling a bit shitty, then Bruno told me to give her "a lot" of space... his words exactly. So I have... but apparently she must have spoken to Nina about the fact that we didn't talk at the train station this morning... because else Nina wouldn't have known about it. I thought everytime she walked past me in the common room and didn't talk to me I thought she was ignoring me - maybe she was... maybe she wasn't - but... I would have spoken to her at the station today - I saw her standing up and then got butterfly's in my stomach because I thought "oh god, I haven't spoken to her for ages, we won't talk much... meh" - then I walked down the stairs, and she was sitting on them then... then I just stood there waiting for the train (yes... I managed to be JUST on time for the 8:32 - you can tell just how much I can actually be bothered at the moment)... then the train came, and I thought I should talk to her but she disappeared - then Jimmy said 'Hi' after we got off - and I walked up with him, even if we didn't actually say a word... so I just hope Nina was ... right and that me and Cera have kind of been immature and she DOES actually want to speak to me (at least a bit is good). Kate; it's good that it was Chloe in stead... seeing as everything got on top of me today and during music I couldn't be fucked to be 'anywhere' and wanted to die... really. But all you have to think, when you think that is 'oh well... however much it doesn't feel like it now, things will get better'.
Went out with Ben tonight - can't remember TOO much - we met some people... ooh Woody, Joe and Nick. Mainly Woody. Met Tally and Beej. I was so drunk I spat beer in Ben's face... which he wasn't too happy about - so I let him spit it in my face - now my hair is sticky... at least Tally had a laugh. lol. Nina - told me what I've just said - and I was talking to her about Kabe... (I'm spelling it like that even if it's not meant to be). I shoud text her actually... and no, tally... it's "Nina", not .... that random name which I forgot. Friday's have suddenly become a lot more interesting - they began to become boring - but it's Fridays - Saturday I'm going to the bench again I think... then Sunday will be sober - except I might be meeting someone. I don't know - anyway....
Ben is drunk and I said he could sleep over - so I'd better make sure he's alive - and go to bed myself. I can't believe he puked in someone's drive-way when Chris (D'Agorn) dropped Tally off. Then I managed to give him directions to my house. :)
I REALLY hope James passed his test today. I was going to text him at 9... but I forgot. I'll text him tomorrow. Not long until I've finished all my lessons - hopefully I can drive then.
Good night.