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this year has gone by so damn fast...lets c... 1 year ago today i was planning my halloween party with all of my friends, i mean the ones who r there no matter what..and i was so excited cause i was finally on my own.. but sad cause i just totaled my car.. :( now a year later, im living with friends for a couple of months, still driving the pos that i got after i ruined my first car.., i have met some really awesome people in the last year!! :) umm, and i mean a lot not just 2 or 3 but like 20!!! and they all have potenial to become really good friends...well only time can tell on that one. but still the passage of time... i always thought when i waas a kid that time went by so slowly, that it would take forever to grow up and be all on my own, well i am grown up but i still have not reached the desired level that i thought that i would be at by now...
i figured that i would a. either have a boyfriend or be engaged, b, have a home of my own c. have a really good job in this profession that i have found myself to have chosen.
now dont get me wrong, i love my job, but i want more.. i cant help it i would love to work in a really good like 5 star resturant, or maybe even own my own... actually i would love to own my own resturant, there is so much that i see and do that i could apply to my own place, and be the one who is in charge and responsible... getting to plan the menu, that and cooking it would be so much fun!!.... oh well, *sigh*
so back onto the whole i wish that i had a bf... its tru i really do i feel as though something wont be right in my life until i find that one man who is the missing part of me. who will complete me so to say, but i just dont want to have to wait until im like 30 to find him either, i would love to have children at least 2 before im that old and to be settled. i c all of my friends with the exception of angie, they all are married and have kids or are trying to have kids or they have a long term bf...its really very depressing..... to be the one who is left out.. maybe i have my expectaions set way to high..idk, but i shouldnt have to lower them either!! jeeze i dont know what to do, now im just rambling..lol
idk why but i just cant imagine myself that far ahead yet either, its like i want a man and family but i want a buisness too, and that would conflict so bad, so maybe i should just settle on a family first then a buisness when im older, idk!!!! hmm, so this turned more then anything into a ramble versus just a update!! oh well..
i figured that i would a. either have a boyfriend or be engaged, b, have a home of my own c. have a really good job in this profession that i have found myself to have chosen.
now dont get me wrong, i love my job, but i want more.. i cant help it i would love to work in a really good like 5 star resturant, or maybe even own my own... actually i would love to own my own resturant, there is so much that i see and do that i could apply to my own place, and be the one who is in charge and responsible... getting to plan the menu, that and cooking it would be so much fun!!.... oh well, *sigh*
so back onto the whole i wish that i had a bf... its tru i really do i feel as though something wont be right in my life until i find that one man who is the missing part of me. who will complete me so to say, but i just dont want to have to wait until im like 30 to find him either, i would love to have children at least 2 before im that old and to be settled. i c all of my friends with the exception of angie, they all are married and have kids or are trying to have kids or they have a long term bf...its really very depressing..... to be the one who is left out.. maybe i have my expectaions set way to high..idk, but i shouldnt have to lower them either!! jeeze i dont know what to do, now im just rambling..lol
idk why but i just cant imagine myself that far ahead yet either, its like i want a man and family but i want a buisness too, and that would conflict so bad, so maybe i should just settle on a family first then a buisness when im older, idk!!!! hmm, so this turned more then anything into a ramble versus just a update!! oh well..