November
Don't expect much from me this month.
November has a track record of generally being a very bad month for me, with three deaths*, a horrific illness for a family member**, a vehicle breakdown during a cross-country move, and a computer demise to its name.
There may or may not be emotional fluctuations. I may or may not try to hide them when they happen.
We'll see what happens.
* A classmate in 2000, my cat the following year, and my grandfather in 2006.
** The same day, the same exact God damn day my classmate died, my brother was admitted to the hospital. I'm still not sure what he had, but it was bad enough that they almost airlifted him Stateside (we lived in Germany at the time), and then decided that the airlift was a bad idea given his condition. I don't remember a lot of that week at all after being told Monday morning about Ben. I really don't. I remember needing a lot of hugs, freaking out after getting home Monday, and my Oma turning up on Wednesday because my mother had to choose between an extremely ill son and a grieving teenage daughter but she didn't want me to be as completely alone as I was Monday.
November has a track record of generally being a very bad month for me, with three deaths*, a horrific illness for a family member**, a vehicle breakdown during a cross-country move, and a computer demise to its name.
There may or may not be emotional fluctuations. I may or may not try to hide them when they happen.
We'll see what happens.
* A classmate in 2000, my cat the following year, and my grandfather in 2006.
** The same day, the same exact God damn day my classmate died, my brother was admitted to the hospital. I'm still not sure what he had, but it was bad enough that they almost airlifted him Stateside (we lived in Germany at the time), and then decided that the airlift was a bad idea given his condition. I don't remember a lot of that week at all after being told Monday morning about Ben. I really don't. I remember needing a lot of hugs, freaking out after getting home Monday, and my Oma turning up on Wednesday because my mother had to choose between an extremely ill son and a grieving teenage daughter but she didn't want me to be as completely alone as I was Monday.