If life were like church...then I wouldn't want to go tomorrow...
I feel like I should update, but I have no idea why. This week was great until it started to suck and then...well...it sucked. I'm disappointed with everything that's been happening lately. I'm angry, I'm stressed, I'm tired, and everything is basically crumbling to pieces. I don't know what else to say. I could say I'm over exaggerating, but then I would just have to shoot myself because it does not seem like an over exaggeration at this moment in time.
My whole outlook on everything is pretty much banking on this magazine. If I don't get in, I'm pretty sure I won't be able to stop a nervous breakdown.
This is not me. I'm not this type of person anymore and I hate finding myself back in the same fucking spot after everything I worked through. It was all for nothing I guess because I'll never be able to shake this.
I doubt anyone can really help me out of this funk at the moment, mostly because the people who should have been able to couldn't and in some instances just made things worse.
I feel like a terrible person because I just can't find myself able to handle trying to cheer many people up right now, especially if they're one of those people who are just not helping right now. Granted, I can talk to a few people, but very few. Gah, I feel like such a dramatic freak...actually, I know I'm a dramatic freak. Whatever. Apparently, January is national complain month, so I'm taking full advantage of it. I just hope this is the end of the bad months this year. I need to get out of this funk.
wtyl...
tata...
My whole outlook on everything is pretty much banking on this magazine. If I don't get in, I'm pretty sure I won't be able to stop a nervous breakdown.
This is not me. I'm not this type of person anymore and I hate finding myself back in the same fucking spot after everything I worked through. It was all for nothing I guess because I'll never be able to shake this.
I doubt anyone can really help me out of this funk at the moment, mostly because the people who should have been able to couldn't and in some instances just made things worse.
I feel like a terrible person because I just can't find myself able to handle trying to cheer many people up right now, especially if they're one of those people who are just not helping right now. Granted, I can talk to a few people, but very few. Gah, I feel like such a dramatic freak...actually, I know I'm a dramatic freak. Whatever. Apparently, January is national complain month, so I'm taking full advantage of it. I just hope this is the end of the bad months this year. I need to get out of this funk.
wtyl...
tata...