Poetic tragedy...
-Influence
I'm an individual with feelings and nothing more.
Until now, my heart on my sleeve is what I wore.
Each day I grow farther from what I used to be.
I'm finally realizing I'm growing into me.
You were holding me back with your judgment. You failed.
I can't help but dreaming of what I'd be if you had prevailed.
I'd be a choking display of scrapes, scabs, and scars.
I'd look up to you each night, instead of the stars.
I'm a symbol of exactly what went wrong in your dreams.
Without me, alone, you can be swallowed up whole in your screams.
You have a negative act that you express upon me.
I think back to the days when I was like you in every degree.
People would comment on how I changed and I wouldn't care.
I thought that no matter how low people sunk you'd always be there.
Looking past the truth is a mistake that I regret.
Unfortunately, I believed so many lies, that so many I can't forget.
As long as you're alive, I'll be living like you're not.
I'm everything you wish you could be. You're everything I'm not.
You pushed me so far that I felt as if I was completely broken.
Every action was taken with no words, yet still to this day I wish I had spoken.
I'll not only let you say sorry, but I'll let you cry out in pain.
Though when you come back to me, I won't listen to you complain.
You're not being treated as brutal as I once was.
So my answer is no when you ask me to put my life on pause.
The "connection" we shared is no longer present in my day.
You're even worse than the cynical person you portray.
Every person has their lows, but I've never seen your highs,
Because everything you say, are inferred as attention cries.
I'll keep my foot in my mouth for as long as I can.
Just as long as you don't ramble about how depressed you've been.
I'm not going to lie like you do and say that what we had meant something.
In reality, when you observe every angle, it actually was nothing.
Go find somebody else that has nothing more important to do than waste their time on you.
Goodbye. Go die. Alone. What I'm saying now is utterly overdue.
I'm an individual with feelings and nothing more.
Until now, my heart on my sleeve is what I wore.
Each day I grow farther from what I used to be.
I'm finally realizing I'm growing into me.
You were holding me back with your judgment. You failed.
I can't help but dreaming of what I'd be if you had prevailed.
I'd be a choking display of scrapes, scabs, and scars.
I'd look up to you each night, instead of the stars.
I'm a symbol of exactly what went wrong in your dreams.
Without me, alone, you can be swallowed up whole in your screams.
You have a negative act that you express upon me.
I think back to the days when I was like you in every degree.
People would comment on how I changed and I wouldn't care.
I thought that no matter how low people sunk you'd always be there.
Looking past the truth is a mistake that I regret.
Unfortunately, I believed so many lies, that so many I can't forget.
As long as you're alive, I'll be living like you're not.
I'm everything you wish you could be. You're everything I'm not.
You pushed me so far that I felt as if I was completely broken.
Every action was taken with no words, yet still to this day I wish I had spoken.
I'll not only let you say sorry, but I'll let you cry out in pain.
Though when you come back to me, I won't listen to you complain.
You're not being treated as brutal as I once was.
So my answer is no when you ask me to put my life on pause.
The "connection" we shared is no longer present in my day.
You're even worse than the cynical person you portray.
Every person has their lows, but I've never seen your highs,
Because everything you say, are inferred as attention cries.
I'll keep my foot in my mouth for as long as I can.
Just as long as you don't ramble about how depressed you've been.
I'm not going to lie like you do and say that what we had meant something.
In reality, when you observe every angle, it actually was nothing.
Go find somebody else that has nothing more important to do than waste their time on you.
Goodbye. Go die. Alone. What I'm saying now is utterly overdue.