and the most important will never know...isnt life funny that way
as i stare into the nothingness of myself i cant help but tear myself apart...there's no point to me when there's no point to us and now there is no point to us simply because i am empty, worthless and pathetic...and the truly pathetic thing is that you have no idea i am so empty so black so completely unworthy...i lock all this inside in hopes that you wont see, you wont see the truly useless creature youve fallen in love with. I am scared...so scared that you will leave once the truth is there in black and white...but ill hide....ill try so hard to hide it...just as long as i can...because youre the greatest and most important thing in my life....you take president over everyone, everything in my little life...and to disappoint you would kill me...your happiness...thats what i may be stealing from you...you want me, i so want you but there is one thing in my way, one obstacle that i may never pass and if i lose you to myself that would be tragic. I hope i can be better...please i want to be better, because my life is dedicated to your happiness...and i want to be the one who is there to to see you smile...but im so scared that your happiness is on hold because i am so fucked up. So damn fucked up.