inconsolable

[dark_malina]

this misery is getting me down
so many wrong choices
so much i cant fix
my heart hurts now
inconsolable
inconceivable
what i could have had
but never was
inconvincible
i am
that life can be okay
i lost that right long ago
it would be so easy 
to be his whore
to not feel
to not hurt anymore
i feel like a whore everytime
he touches me
inconsolable
inconceivable
this person i am now
and who i used to be
but will never be again
inconvincible
i am
that i'll ever be okay
i can never have that again
to be someones love
to be happy
to find the simple joy again
i feel this hope
every time we speak
your words touch me
inconsolable
inconceivable
that just words can make or break me
just words bring me back
they always do.
inconvincible
i am
that this feeling is wrong
i dont think the feeling is wrong
to love someone
to want their happiness
to be a friend.