ergh...awake...
i swear to whomever if tfm's computer crashes one more time i'm going to go over there and put it out of it's misery myself. i've killed two of his computer's already. what's one more? that will make four i've allinated. *shrugs* i don't mean to. just happens. static? *shrugs*
anywho, i don't feel like going to sleep just yet. i'm bored of looking at art. don't feel like reading comics. not inspired enough to draw or write story snipets. rargh. i feel like whining. but i really don't have anything to whine about. ramble. ramble.
ok. stance of magick and whatnot. here goes. some of it makes sense to me, but some of it also turns me off. like the sage burning and tapping into 'nature' and talking to the god and godess. why? well, while i believe they both exist, i am still sore with them. i mean, i have mix set of beliefs still. i don't trust the higher beings. so i don't mess with them, they dont' mess with me. that's my attitude on that. i use to be a big empath. so much that i got over whelmed by it. i kinda shorted out. i use to be really, really good at finding ppl in a crowded room, becos i could pick up on them. now, it's faint and usually just luck. i like stones, they're pretty and some speak to me. i also, like fire. however, i have learned i need to up proctection when using fire, cos all manner of things and people can be watching. as far as tarot goes, i'm a void. doesn't matter who does the reading, but you will just get past, no present or future. just past. i think it maybe because i changed so much. or that i've done this so many times before, the paths keep changing. *shrugs* i'd like to study judaism, but ever since the 'incident' i feel like i'm going to burst into flames. that i'm not allowed. which i REALLY hope will lessen, esp. since i've been invited to passover dinner this year. i have a natural curiousity about all religions. thou my standpoint on organized religions is that you just get chaos and a bunch of mindless hyprocrites. and i think we all have the devil and god confused. very confused.
dumdedo...~
anywho, i don't feel like going to sleep just yet. i'm bored of looking at art. don't feel like reading comics. not inspired enough to draw or write story snipets. rargh. i feel like whining. but i really don't have anything to whine about. ramble. ramble.
ok. stance of magick and whatnot. here goes. some of it makes sense to me, but some of it also turns me off. like the sage burning and tapping into 'nature' and talking to the god and godess. why? well, while i believe they both exist, i am still sore with them. i mean, i have mix set of beliefs still. i don't trust the higher beings. so i don't mess with them, they dont' mess with me. that's my attitude on that. i use to be a big empath. so much that i got over whelmed by it. i kinda shorted out. i use to be really, really good at finding ppl in a crowded room, becos i could pick up on them. now, it's faint and usually just luck. i like stones, they're pretty and some speak to me. i also, like fire. however, i have learned i need to up proctection when using fire, cos all manner of things and people can be watching. as far as tarot goes, i'm a void. doesn't matter who does the reading, but you will just get past, no present or future. just past. i think it maybe because i changed so much. or that i've done this so many times before, the paths keep changing. *shrugs* i'd like to study judaism, but ever since the 'incident' i feel like i'm going to burst into flames. that i'm not allowed. which i REALLY hope will lessen, esp. since i've been invited to passover dinner this year. i have a natural curiousity about all religions. thou my standpoint on organized religions is that you just get chaos and a bunch of mindless hyprocrites. and i think we all have the devil and god confused. very confused.
dumdedo...~