parakiss....
so i'm reading the final paradise kiss manga and george...the way he talks and behaves reminds me of someone...yea. we are sooo naive when we are young. some dais i stil wonder what would have happened had i gone down another road. what if bouncer answered first instead of the fire mage? then what? what if i had gone to the business dinner with atamu? i mostly wonder about that one, cos i'm such a different person now. i dunno if atamu would care for the 'changes' i've made in my life. i try to wonder what would it be like if fmage and i hadn't separated, but i can't. it would've happened one way or another. we were just both...inmature. i dunno know how else to phrase. i can live with that. and i'm actually getting to the point where i don't feel anything toward bastard. just apathy. i'm still scared of 'certain ppls', but that should go away with time...i hope. whieee! i think i caught something at work and i ran around doing errands yesterdai, so now i've prolly caught and i actually have the weekend off TnT i really should've gone straight to bed when i got home, but i didn't want to. just a reminder to myself, jon finally came and visited me at the kiosk. it's a shame we've been out of touch. he's still in school. lucky. things have changed so much since i was in so i finished early and have nothing to show for it, but a piece of paper that doesn't mean shit. i don't know how to use the latest computer art software and i should TnT what i know is about 5 yrs old TnT and i'm rusty too. *sigh* damn. damn. damn. yes, need to work on the comic. well, i'm starting not to see straight. so nights ^-^ zzz