bad luck anyone? plaese, feel free to take mine...
so lately i have been trying to not think about things...
which was really nice... for awhile.... i just kind of worked and moved and woke up everyday and i didn't worry about all the shit that's been bugging me lately... lack of sleep and continuous exercise when you run out of work to do always helps to clog a mind from thinking...
But all that non-thinking got me to do one really fucked up thing... and even though i know that you will never read this cause you don't even know it exists, i'm really sorry... you have no idea how much i regret that... and i can't help it... you were just there… just another person… I’m sorry cause I knew I was doing something wrong then… I’m just so fucking sorry…..
Wednesday was another nightmare altogether... I had car problems up the ass... starting with some idiots who almost hit me because they don't know how to yield... so i swerved out of the way and hit a curb... which gave me a fucking flat tire... and considering the fact that i didn't remember how to change a tire and Alena didn't either we went to ask for help from the Sears tire place (we were at the mall) they said that they didn't do that kind of thing and that we had to go to firestone... (which we were already soaked from running to the sears place.) So we went to firestone and they said that they couldn't do anything because the car wasn't on their property and we would have to get a tow truck to get their help... so we ran back through the rain to the car and called AAA... when AAA finally ot there the guy fixed the tire in less then 10 minutes.... and then the fucking car wouldn't start... My battery was dead from the hazard lights... but then the guy tried to jump start the car and that didn't work... so he tested the battery and found that it was bad... so i had to call AAA again to get another guy to come out who could fix my battery.... Fucking A....
then shit happened at work and Nick yelled at me... which in the end it turned out i had done nothing wrong... which still doesn't make things much better between me and my manager...
then today i burnt my hand.... At least it stopped burning for now...
Other then that i really have nothing else to rant about that i can think of anymore... I just want this school year to end so that i can get on with my life...
Oh and i've started on a really kick-ass character for my animation just recently... when i get more done on it i'll post up some pics... it's this mainly mechanical but still partially organic character... if all goes according to plan it's going to look bad ass...
Oh and if you don't know yet i got accepted into the Arts and Technology program @ UT Dallas... so i'll be going to dallas soon...
"I beat my machine, it's a part of me, it's inside of me
I'm stuck in this dream, it's changing me, I am becoming
the me that you know had some second thoughts
she's covered with scabs, she is broken and sore
the me that you know doesn't come around much
that part of me isn't here anymore"
~Kyo
which was really nice... for awhile.... i just kind of worked and moved and woke up everyday and i didn't worry about all the shit that's been bugging me lately... lack of sleep and continuous exercise when you run out of work to do always helps to clog a mind from thinking...
But all that non-thinking got me to do one really fucked up thing... and even though i know that you will never read this cause you don't even know it exists, i'm really sorry... you have no idea how much i regret that... and i can't help it... you were just there… just another person… I’m sorry cause I knew I was doing something wrong then… I’m just so fucking sorry…..
Wednesday was another nightmare altogether... I had car problems up the ass... starting with some idiots who almost hit me because they don't know how to yield... so i swerved out of the way and hit a curb... which gave me a fucking flat tire... and considering the fact that i didn't remember how to change a tire and Alena didn't either we went to ask for help from the Sears tire place (we were at the mall) they said that they didn't do that kind of thing and that we had to go to firestone... (which we were already soaked from running to the sears place.) So we went to firestone and they said that they couldn't do anything because the car wasn't on their property and we would have to get a tow truck to get their help... so we ran back through the rain to the car and called AAA... when AAA finally ot there the guy fixed the tire in less then 10 minutes.... and then the fucking car wouldn't start... My battery was dead from the hazard lights... but then the guy tried to jump start the car and that didn't work... so he tested the battery and found that it was bad... so i had to call AAA again to get another guy to come out who could fix my battery.... Fucking A....
then shit happened at work and Nick yelled at me... which in the end it turned out i had done nothing wrong... which still doesn't make things much better between me and my manager...
then today i burnt my hand.... At least it stopped burning for now...
Other then that i really have nothing else to rant about that i can think of anymore... I just want this school year to end so that i can get on with my life...
Oh and i've started on a really kick-ass character for my animation just recently... when i get more done on it i'll post up some pics... it's this mainly mechanical but still partially organic character... if all goes according to plan it's going to look bad ass...
Oh and if you don't know yet i got accepted into the Arts and Technology program @ UT Dallas... so i'll be going to dallas soon...
"I beat my machine, it's a part of me, it's inside of me
I'm stuck in this dream, it's changing me, I am becoming
the me that you know had some second thoughts
she's covered with scabs, she is broken and sore
the me that you know doesn't come around much
that part of me isn't here anymore"
~Kyo